This may sound familiar to you. Last week I found myself sleeping deeply for ten hours (?!!) on a number of nights. Then the past few days the energy went the other way. Awake all night till 5:3o am Monday. No nap and up till after midnight Tuesday, and still up for an hour with a cup of decaf tea at 3:33. Yesterday I woke up wide awake at 4:30 and dragged through the day exhausted, yet not able to even take a nap, and I love a good nap. I'm working to avoid desperation setting in as I look through sleep deprived eyes at the lengthy to do list I have before me for this move. I headed for bed early last night, asking for divine intervention, and thankfully, most thankfully slept through the night.
I received a strong message to write more about how we approach what might be coming in the near future. Do I know what's to transpire,? No. Some hunches that it might be multiple events in rapid succession. In truth, I don't think anyone has been privy to what will unfold, regardless of their intuitive sensitivities. That's the way it's meant to be. What is most important now is to let go of the need to know. We have all the resources we really need within us, huge resourcefulness, and we have our perfect Divine Spirits.
Earlier today I was thinking back on when I first started waking up and recognizing that we were nearing the most intense phase of this Great Shift. Though I tried not to let fear well up inside, I have to be honest and say that I had a lot of fear. What was going to happen? What could I do to prepare? What would I need to store and how much? ..... I did follow the guidance I received and stored a fair amount of food. I learned how to grow vegetables (I'm still learning this), bought garden tools, and stocked heirloom vegetable seeds. Gradually I built up a small shelf of resource books on living self-sustainably. Generally just doing my best to make myself as independent and sustainable as possible within my financial circumstance. Over time, I've come to trust that one way or another, my needs will be met, because they always are. even when I'm not sure where what I need is coming from, my needs are always met.
Yesterday I ran into a challenge that affects whether I have the resources to make this move to the northwest. At first it was a hard blow. In the past, I would have responded by dropping down into deep disappointment. But I didn't do that this time. Instead, I was able to quickly move to the space of accepting that Spirit knows the perfect timing for me to relocate. I trust that I will be placed where I'm needed, at the time my energy and presence is needed there. Boy, does it feel good to be able to respond in this way. Many years of internal work to shift out of the programing from childhood that governed how I responded. So worth all the introspection. We make everything so difficult when we battle the flow. It's so much easier to accept the flow and ride with it.
And then a few moments ago, things shifted and the obstacle was removed. How cool is that? Though I can offer no proof, I've a strong sense that by staying in the place of trust, rather than filling up with the emotions of disappointment and despair, I created the opening for the universe to support me. Either that or it's the erratic energy flowing around us.
It's gotten much colder here in the evenings and so I made lentil soup last night. Such a nice comfort on a chilly evening. Here's my recipe. Easy and quick from start to finish. Now I've got to get back to my moving to do list!
Chilly Day Lentil Soup
2 Tbsp. vegetable oil
1 med. onion, chopped
2 cloves garlic, minced
2 cups lentils, uncooked
8 cups water or vegetable stock, plus 3 - 4 additional cups water
1 - 2 vegetable bouillon cube (if water is used instead of stock)
2 small carrots, thickly sliced
2-3 ribs celery, chopped
3 med. red skin potatoes, cut into large cubes
2 bay leaves
1 tsp. crushed coriander
1/2 – 1 tsp. cumin
freshly ground pepper, to taste
salt, to taste
2 Tbsp. red wine vinegar
2-4 ounces fresh spinach (chopped if large leaves)
Pick over the lentils and rinse in a colander.
In a large soup pot, saute the chopped onion and garlic in the vegetable oil until soft and translucent. Add the lentils, 8 cups water or stock, celery, carrots, and potatoes. Bring to a simmer. Add the bay leaves, coriander, cumin, salt and fresh ground pepper. Simmer, stirring occasionally and adding additional water as necessary, until the lentils and potatoes are tender, about 15 to 20 minutes.
Check the seasonings, adding more cumin and coriander as needed. Stir in the vinegar. To serve, place a small handful of spinach leaves in each bowl before ladling in the hot soup. The heat from the soup will wilt the spinach leaves.