Wednesday, July 28, 2010
My close friend, Julia, is in knowledgeable in Huna, a Hawaiian healing tradition. She's posted a couple of pieces on her blog, Cosmic Calabash, about the three selves in Huna. It's a wonderful conceptual framework for working through internal resistance and integrating your selves. Lower Self is the child, the creative, playful aspect of Self, which rules the body. Like a child, this aspect of our self can be irrational and stubborn, especially when we don't listen and alleviate concerns. Middle self is the parent or teacher, the rational, logic self, the place where we mostly operate. Higher Self is the grandparent, our inner wisdom, our expansive self. The Higher Self can't come in to join the family at the table, unless the Middle Self is parenting the Lower Self. As Julia explains, most of our problems arise from not listening to and parenting our inner child.
The conversation between my Inner Child and Middle Self, turned out to be quite helpful. She shared with me the fact that in most every job I've (we've) had, there was an issue about not being compensated, either being underpaid, not receiving promised raises for some reason, a university employer reneging on the salary offered after I started work based on a technicality about which degrees I had when they'd been clearly and honestly provided up front on my resume, or clients who got into financial straights and never paid for work completed. I'd not recognized before that there were compensation issues throughout my work history. I was however, very aware of her other complaint that quite often my dedication, time and effort was not really appreciated or acknowledged. Once her observations and complaints about our work history were expressed, it was easy for me to understand my Inner Child's reluctance to get back in one of those situations again. Can't blame her at all.
Over the course of our conversation, I, the Middle Self, both listened and acknowledged what I heard from my Inner Child. Then in parenting, I pointed out to her that we have also been recognized and received much appreciation for our work. And for the most part we've been regularly compensated for our work, sometimes, very well. Most importantly, things are very different now. We are in a very different place, thanks in large part to her. We are more whole. We've accomplished great healing and growth over the last three years. Perhaps most significantly, we now value and appreciate our self, our talents, sensitivities, and perceptions in ways we never did before. Which changes everything. When we love, value, and appreciate our self, then it is reflected in the outer world and we receive it in return. We couldn't have done this without her.
Taking the time for this conversation, part internal dialogue, part journaling, was immediately worth while. The block I'd had about pursuing a prospective employer vanished. The heart and humanity I wanted to express in my cover letter flowed easily once my Child Self was helping, rather than resisting.
Besides, the healing community where we (Middle and Higher Selves) want to work is really awesome. My Inner Child saw that when we finished the cover letter and hand-delivered our resume this afternoon. The facility looks like a cross between a resort and summer camp, with the mountains stretched out in the distance around the property. A strong sense of freedom, creativity, and plain old human-ness abound. My Inner Child will like it there. Will they have a job for me? I don't know, but they'd be crazy not to, given all I (all Selves) have to offer.
The right thing is what always happens. I'll trust the process and have faith that I am in union with all good things. Because I am.
I am in union with all good things.
I Am in union with all good things.
I AM in union with all good things.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
What we need comes to us at just the right moment. In the past few weeks what I needed in order to fit the pieces together and create at a level of conceptual understanding arrived, one, two, three. Much gratitude :) In this video interview of Dolores Cannon, she gives the simplest, most straightforward explanation of the separating of the old Earth and the New Earth.
It's kind of contradictory to be writing about reaching for such a realization, when I wrote a few days ago about the importance of accepting the unknown. And at the same time, it is really important to be honing in on Truth. I've always found that if I understand the particular process of transformation I'm undergoing, it makes it easier to adjust to the twists and turns along the way and to handle the dark passages. Even when I don't know which way is up and which way is down, I can still keep my internal balance if I know what road I'm on. Comfort in recognizing how far I'm come on the journey. We're entering the most challenging phase of the transition, and so I hold on to a few things that bring comfort and grounding.
The Dolores Cannon interview followed closely behind a few other descriptions about the physical separation of the planet as it shifts fully into the 5th dimension, leaving old Earth in physical form in the 4th. It's a difficult concept to grasp, as she points out. Took a good while for me, a gradual process in keeping with the gradual nature of our Ascension. Now the pieces all come together in my mind. Still lots of unknowns, yet I have a conceptual framework. We've already separated to a large extent. It occurred back in September 2008, just before the fall of the markets. It's become more and more apparent that a minority of us are operating on a different channel from the rest, the sheeple. We no longer understand their channel and they don't even know ours exists.
I'm also very relieved that at some point in the next few years, exactly when we can't be certain, we can leave the craziness, violence, greed and manipulation behind. I'm so tired of all the unkindness to each other and to our planet. So very, very tired of it all.
And it's getting crazier out there. Now 30,000 more human being will be ordered into war to kill and destroy. (Yeah Wikileaks for revealing the Truth! You're my heroes) More lies and cover-up about the still leaking oil and methane gas. HB 5741, just introduced and referred to the House Committee on Armed Services, will establish mandatory service, either in combat or for "Homeland Security" for all adults ages 18 to 42. I posted this on Facebook and not a single person commented on it???? This is reestablishing the draft!!!! With no means to be excused. Just as predicted by No Eyes back in Phoenix Rising, and the Web Bots, and on and on. I'd say they'll never get that through, but Congress does what they're told by the Illuminati government, not the people. Moving close to the Canadian boarder, with my daughter and son-in-law in tow, looks better and better even though I don't like cold climates.
I can get all riled up when I see what the dark forces are trying (specifically chosen word) to do. And I'm full of glee when their plans backfire, and backfire they will. I trust. I trust, and trust, and trust. The Light forces will prevail. We are transitioning to Oneness in New Earth.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Over the years since then I tried to do work that made a difference in people's lives. Not because of the memory, but because if I was going to work, then why waste my time and energy on something that earned me money but didn't contribute to the overall good of the world. I ended up worked in areas most people avoided; assisting people with HIV/AIDS, people transitioning at the end of their life in hospice, advocating for adults and children leaving abusive relationships. It felt worthwhile to work in ways that helped people. At that same time I always knew none of these endeavors were the work I came here to do. That part I still didn't understand.
Over the years I received guidance that it really didn't matter what profession I chose, it was up to me. That I came here to assist and there are many ways to assist. Many ways to assist, hmmm. Over time my understanding of the ways we assist has expanded greatly. At first I thought assisting meant helping to make things better for others in a very concrete way. Actually assisting covers a broad spectrum. Gradually, I've learned to understand this.
Many times in my life I've triggered other people's buttons without meaning to at all. It used to cause me great sadness because my intent was well-meaning, my feelings those of kindness. And here was another person all flipped out and either shunning or ranting at me. A few years ago I finally saw that it was one of the ways I assist. In these situations without intending to, I was raising another person's unresolved issues so that they could deal with them, if they so chose. While never conscious on my part, and usually not on theirs either, I was assisting them just the same.
One of the most profound ways we assist each other and the planet has rarely been recognized until recently. It is our presence. We've all, including me, been well conditioned and dulled from an awareness of the power of our energy. Such a crock. We make a big difference just by showing up. The simple, yet not so simple fact of our individual energy being present on the planet alters and raises the vibration. We assist by our presence in the community we live in, we assist by our presence in the room. Just by being here, I change everything. And so do you.
Today is the second day in a row it's been 100 degrees, with humidity making it feel like 115. This is my answer: Gazpacho served with fresh baked Focaccia...
3 very large, ripe tomatoes
1 1/2 cucumbers, partially peeled and seeded
1 1/2 green peppers
1 sweet red pepper
1/2 small red onion
2 cloves garlic, pressed
1/3 cup chopped cilantro
1/3 cup wine vinegar
2 tablespoons balsamic vinegar
1/2 cup olive oil
1 teaspoon sea salt
lots of fresh cracked pepper
Chop the vegetables into large chunks. In a food processor, pulse the tomatoes. once they are well chopped, spoon about half out into a large bowl, then process the remainder until it's a smooth puree, add to the chopped tomatoes. Repeat with cucumbers, peppers, and onion, combining with the chopped/pureed vegetables when done. Add the crushed garlic, chopped cilantro, vinegars, oil, salt and pepper, stirring until thoroughly combined. Cover the bowl and refrigerate until chilled. Taste and adjust seasonings before serving. Gazpacho gets better as the flavors meld together.
1 1/2 teaspoons dry yeast
1 1/3 cups very warm water
1 teaspoon sugar or honey
3 cups white whole wheat flour or bread flour, divided
1 cup whole wheat flour
2 tablespoons olive oil
1 1/2 teaspoons fine sea salt
1 -2 teaspoons coarse sea salt
1 tablespoon fresh rosemary
Sprinkle the yeast and teaspoon of sugar over the warm water in a two cup measuring cup. Let sit for five minutes. It will get foamy. Pour the yeast mixture into a large mixing bowl. Stir in 2 cups of white flour and 2 tablespoons olive oil. Cover the bowl with a damp cloth and set in a warm place to rise until doubled, about an hour to an hour and a half.
Stir in the salt, 1 cup of whole wheat flour, then stir in enough white flour to make a firm dough. Knead the dough on a floured board for five minutes. Form into a ball. Place the dough in a clean bowl, coat the dough with olive oil, cover with the damp cloth. Let rise until doubled, about an hour.
Punch down the dough, knead briefly. Cut the dough in half. You can either make two 9" x 9" Focaccias, or freeze half the dough for later.
Roll or pat the dough into a 9" square. Place the dough into a 9" x 9" pan oiled with olive oil. Coat the top of the dough with more olive oil, cover with the damp cloth and allow to rise. After about 45 minutes, preheat the oven to 450 degrees.
When doubled, make indentations all over the dough with your finger tips. Sprinkle the top with the coarse sea salt and the chopped rosemary. bake for 15 minutes. cut into squares or rectangles. Serve with olive oil mixed with salt and fresh cracked pepper and/or grated Parmesan cheese for dipping.
Note: this dough makes wonderful pizza crust too, provided you have a baking stone.
Preheat oven and a baking stone to 500 degrees.
Roll roll half the dough into a rough circle. Sprinkle a little corn meal under dough on the bread board. Then top with a thin layer of your favorite tomato sauce, a layer of fresh spinach leaves or scattered dabs of pesto, grated mozzarella cheese, and sliced peppers, mushrooms, artichoke hearts, crumbled feta. Carefully slide the pizza onto the hot baking stone. Bake for 12 to 14 minutes, until bubbling and slightly browned.
"Part of the biggest step is for those who have chosen to expand to be able to walk without needing to know, and this is not to be confused with true knowing which comes from trust and faith in a perfect universal order. To know that there are no certain answers, that the unknown is the basis of all creativity, and that all need to accept the unknown in order to discover and develop to their full potential."
Accept the unknown; Basis of all creativity; In order to discover and develop our true potential.
During the late 1980's, I worked at a small grass-roots organization in Washington, DC doing case management and counseling with people living with HIV/AIDS. It was early in the epidemic, AZT was the primary antiviral drug, the average life expectancy was 6 months, a number of long-term survivors made it two years or more, despite the toxicity of AZT. Four months after I started working there, all three of my coworkers had died of complications from the disease. The Chairman of the organization's board of directors begged me please not to leave, they were searching for replacements.
But I had not considered leaving. You see, there is a major benefit that comes from working with people dealing with a terminal illness. We have only right now. None of us can count on what will be tomorrow. Clear up your relationships. Each day do what matters and makes a difference in the world. Do not wait for another day to express your feelings or to tell someone what they mean to you.
My clients role modeled this each day. Working there kept me in the now. Because we don't know. What will happen is always unknown and when I accept this, I am always rich in the moment and my days are filled with joy and appreciation for all that I am given.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
I know, both in my heart and mind, that I am Divinely protected. Many of us are. My guidance clearly stated that I am safe here for now, they are working on assistance to ensure this. Though the time to move is near, I do not need to rush. This may only mean the difference between moving in three months as opposed to six weeks, though in this bit of extra time I sense that more good will flow from me and to me throughout the transition. Any protection extended to me will also extend to this wonderful community of people I live amongst. Whatever benefit my energy provides as I move about the community can have it's effect. Giving a little more time allows for the gathering of whatever I will need in whatever new place that I'm headed. All is in Universal Order.
I have great and deep love and care for humanity. Part of me wants to warn and alert people to what is unfolding. However, the other part of me knows this is not my role, and it backfires on me whenever I start telling anyone about the need to watch what is really going on. They don't want to hear. It's better for me to recognize that each person has their own process of awakening, even if they have to be shaken by events in order to wake up. So here I am this morning reminding myself about the wisdom of trusting the process, for me and for all others. Trust the Process. I don't have all the answers, nor do I really know what will transpire, even when I look at what is taking place right Now and can see what is a logical course to follow.
Rather than add my emotional energy to the collective energy pool swarming around the issues of what will happen next, I am making the conscious choice to focus my energy on expanding my inner awareness. Some days I'll be better at this than others, I'm sure. By increasing my receptivity to my inner prompting, I can pick up any information I need to navigate through the rapids of this great shift. And that's the goal for each of us anyway, to expand our powers of awareness into multidimensional mode.
To this end, some more old emotional gunk acquired as a bi-product of life recently surfaced to be examined, resolved, and released. Just when I think I'm about done with this clearing process, here comes a few more issues to deal with. Actually I'm grateful this is happening. Each resolved and released issue is one less weight to carry, and one less thing to alter and sometimes distort my perception.
I'm getting to the foundational layers of the internalized messages that have told me I'm not worth noticing, I'm not deserving, I'm not worthy of respect. The legacy of a childhood of inattention, disregard, criticism, judgment, and no affection. Passed on by parents who received the same in their childhoods. Many, many years I've worked on peeling through the layers of Self to cull out these messages that wove themselves through my being. Is this the last layer?? I sincerely hope so, and if it's not, then I'll just keep peeling away until I've discarded the last remnants of this pack of lies. I'll know I've succeeded when I no longer catch myself responding with explanations and attempts to justify myself in the face of someone's subtle judgments, as I did the other day.
All the self work pays off, believe me, it's the most important work we can do. At least IMHO. My daughter told me once that she has never doubted for a moment that she is loved, respected, and valued unconditionally. One of the greatest gifts I've ever received was hearing that. It means I broke the destructive patterns that ran through my bloodlines. Of this I'm immensely proud. Perhaps one day in the future every person will know without a doubt that they are of immense value, worthy and respected, and deeply loved for who they are. Imagine the difference in our world then. We will have created Utopia.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Often in the midst of a challenge a gift comes to us unexpectedly, and the gift changes our interior landscape. Our inner tone shifts, heaviness vanishes, and our perception clears. I share what appeared as a gift to me the other night, "The Relationship To Gaia".
I'm reminded of the last time I traveled by plane. I flew from Asheville, which is nestled in the juncture of the Blue Ridge and Smoky Mountains. I had a window seat. As we ascended, I looked down at the mountains with their carpet of millions of green trees. The expansiveness of our Earth grew in my vision as the plane rose. Inside I felt the Earth speaking. How much she loves us all. How she provides everything we need, presented to us amidst the miles and miles of every stretching beauty. Gaia loves us so very much.
Each day I stand barefoot in the grass, reach down placing my palms upon Earth and tell her how I love her throughout my being.
This morning I am incredulous. It has seemed to me as the disaster in the GOM grows and the intentional poisoning of the waters and air proceeds with such stealth, that people would finally begin waking up. Is this not large and glaring enough???? Yet I hear statements such as these almost daily... "People can't leave Florida! They'll never be able to sell their houses." "What's corexit?" "I really don't want to hear all about what's happening in the Gulf. I prefer to just send my love and prayers to the dolphins and turtles." Well what has to happen before it matters to you!!!!
Waters flow. Winds Blow. They circulate and permeate. Water and air. The two most basic requirements for life. Everything is interconnected. Everything is interdependent.
There is no mistake in the name given to this dispersant. Corexit. Core Exit. They've now dumped "OVER 42 Million Gallons of Corexit into the ocean" according to a Federal government witness at the hearings taking place in New Orleans. Corexit will usher many out of the planet.
The malevolence continues until people pay attention to what is going on and stand up against it. There is the mis-perception in the New Age community that paying attention to negative things happening in the Now makes them manifest. Well they are already here! They've manifested here now because of apathy and inaction. They've manifested here now because people abdicated and signed over their Free Will, rather than defend their right to choose how the Earth, their home, is treated. Not paying attention to what is happening right now is Denial.
I'm beginning to comprehend that most people will not wake up until their individual life is irreparably altered. Until they are faced with the situation of having no money and/or no food and/or no water. The malevolent destruction must appear in their own small world before they take notice and realize they could have done something to prevent it. It makes me sad. I'm deeply disappointed that oh so many, many people have forgotten how to be Human Beings. I've always held such hope for the peoples of Earth.
After two years of existing in a holding pattern of sorts while waiting for the shift to really get underway, it's now time for me to move into action. First downsizing significantly so I travel lighter, then a quick relocation to where I'm needed next. The holding pattern had become a draining way to live from day to day. It's with much relief and growing excitement that I prepare now for the move north. Intuitively, I now know the placement, the place where I'm being called into service. The details of getting there always fall into place like clockwork when we're headed in the necessary direction. Work awaits me. There will be much for many of us to do as the turbulence increases in the coming weeks and months. I focus now on being in placement and ready.
Many years ago I had a reading which told me I would eventually work finding homes for many displaced people. Couldn't imagine then the path that would lead me there, how this would come about, or what would cause many displaced people. Clear as day now. The displaced will be arriving very soon, in droves. And I intend to be in place and ready when they they arrive. Many basic needs to be met. Systems to be designed to meet those needs for shelter and food. Spirit speaks from within. I do my best to listen and act.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
This message was transmitted by Commander Soltec, Head of Scientific Division of the Ashtar Command, through his scribe Dr. Edwin M. Young. It accurately reflects the current thinking at the etherian level. ~Ashtar
Ceres Anthonious "Toniose" Soltec: The Big Squeeze ~ 6/27/10
Received by Dr. Edwin M. Young
An exceptional message from Commander Soltec about the Gulf Oil Spill:
Good evening, my scribe. Yes, it is your longtime friend and scientific colleague, Toniose. And yes, you have been hearing parts of this message for many days now, as certain ones, more attuned than most to Truth, have been moved to ask you about the mess in the Gulf. The question indeed compels the answer. Thank you for taking the time to write for me, that we might provide insight for a wider questioning audience.
By all means, I would expect nothing less than that you demand a proper identification of my energy, no matter how familiar my energy signature might seem: I am more formally known as Ceres Anthonious “Toniose” Soltec. I am the Geophysical Commander of this present Earth Transition Project. I am of the team known as the Host of God. I come in the Radiant Light of the One who created All That Is, in service to those who seek Truth. My domain of expertise and responsibility reaches far beyond what is known as the science of geophysics on your planet, since your current level of understanding lacks much in the way of appreciation for the CONSCIOUS nature of great and compassionate planetary beings like your Mother Earth.
Many ones at various stages of spiritual awakening are asking at this time for insights about the tragic situation unfolding in the Gulf of Mexico region of your
As we of the Host have told you many times in our past messages, this is an era of The Great Awakening and The Great Cleansing, when important lessons in spiritual growth would play themselves out in your physical arena in an accelerated and sometimes intensely blunt fashion. This exercise applies as much to the Dark Energies, who are valiantly attempting to hold onto their longstanding planetary control mechanisms (especially money and energy), as it applies to those of you operating in more of a Lighted manner.
The more aligned with the Light you are, the more comfortable you will become as the incoming Light continues to increase in both intensity and frequency. In response to this present challenging environment, you have, for some time now, been constantly making adjustments in the underlying energy structures which support and maintain your physical, mental, and emotional bodies—especially as you shed buried emotional scars left over from past lessons in this Earth schoolroom. Like a tennis ball thrown into a swimming pool full of activity, you may get jostled around a lot, and temporarily even get submerged now and then, but you’ll find yourself generally floating to the water’s surface, so to speak, due to the buoyancy that results from your Light. As we have long suggested, making an effort each day to be quiet and connect within to Source will go a long way toward bringing a measure of balance and inner peace to offset the outer chaos that may be unfolding all around you as matters intensify between the Light and Dark.
That outer chaos is largely the result of how the incoming Light is bothering the Dark Energies. Like the melting of snow-men and their elaborate snow-forts as the seasons move into the warmth of summer, these Dark ones are experiencing the gradual yet utter dissolution of all that they have worked so diligently to achieve over many centuries of clever manipulation of humanity. Thus you are observing (and perhaps even experiencing firsthand through such as economic hardship) their roaring tantrums over this losing situation.
Their anger is often vented through stepped-up manipulation of negative-impact events, carried out mostly through various worldwide human puppetry, some of whom you recognize as the so-called elite controllers of your planet and their international corporate minions. These shenanigans are typically designed to generate outpourings of fear and anger from the masses (especially hoping to pull down you highly Lighted ones) since the more low-frequency energies they cause to be sent into the planetary ethers, the more that helps to buy them time by keeping the “temperature” cooler in terms of the energy climate they need to remain comfortable and effective. So the less YOU become caught up in THEIR shenanigans (through contributing any outpourings of negative emotions), the less they can continue to tolerate remaining around you or this planet.
My scribe had quite a laugh a few weeks ago when, in response to a friend’s question, I first shared a mental picture of where these Dark Energies and their puppetry are stuck at this time in the unfolding events of your planetary transformation: Perhaps you have seen comic-relief video clips on the evening news of some “unfortunate” thief, who had been intent on robbing some closed convenience store in the middle of the night, but who had managed to get himself royally stuck in an air-conditioning ceiling vent that was supposed to be his clever route of entry into the store. Consider the point in his plight shortly BEFORE he finally has to “cry uncle” and pull out his cell phone to call 911 for help; it is a point of the most sickening frustration, then anguish, and finally, realization and acceptance of the inevitable. Once he makes that call his game is over, as he and his intentions become exposed for all to see on the next day’s local news.
It would be useful to keep that picture of the ill-fated thief in mind—stuck, as your expression goes, “between a rock and a hard place”—as you watch what is going on with the extremely toxic oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico (among other unravelings of the Dark Energy power structure). Intense and profound spiritual lessons are underway on many levels. Let us consider a few of the perhaps less obvious ones:
First of all, the very corporate arm of the elite who have consistently (and often ruthlessly) suppressed, for most of the last century, all of the so-called “free-energy” modalities gifted to your planet through various inventors, that would have rendered oil (a natural fluid of Mother Earth’s circulatory system) unnecessary ever as an energy source, are the ones squarely and quite publicly “on trial” at the center of this mess in the Gulf. And all attempts to soften the situation through expensive media PR campaigns have only backfired on them.
But such “poetic justice” is hardly the end of their dilemma. Those who operate under Dark control are never known to exercise any degree of intelligent or moral balance in their pursuits (think, for example, Bernie Madoff), and this case is no exception.
These ones have ignored the already well known (if not publicly admitted) geophysical dangers of deep-water, deep-well drilling, zealously tapping into levels of Mother Earth’s planetary body where tectonic plate-driven fluid pressures exceed the limits of your present technical capabilities. For example, it does not take profound scientific genius to appreciate how hooking up a normal-strength garden hose to your corner hydrant, that operates at fire-hose water pressures, is going to be a recipe for uncontrollable disaster. And as many of you intuitively suspect, much of the fallout from the Gulf oil spill (and even more dangerous attempted fixes) has not—yet—even been revealed by your well-controlled (so far) major news outlets. Those damning revelations will be left to their proper time in this unfolding spiritual lesson.
So you have a situation that, on nearly all fronts, is actually beyond your present human technology to fix. Various attempts that have been paraded on your news programs are more like dog-and-pony shows, meant to give an illusion of engineering competency. Of course the fervent hope is that you-the-people aren’t technically savvy enough to see through such charades, especially with the media’s lapdog collusion. But while such deceptions may buy some time, do you perhaps see a parallel between this jam and that of the thief stuck in the air-conditioning vent?
So now I ask you a question to ponder: WHO do you suppose these stuck, oil-soaked thieves will eventually—if begrudgingly—have to call for 911 help? Hint: It’s certainly not the first time we of the Host (and our Galactic Federation brotherhood) have been called to respond to dangerous matters that have gotten out-of-control on your planet (think, for example,
Yes, the call (911 or other) most certainly compels the answer. But what form that answer takes is yet to unfold in the fullness of lessons of most value to the spiritual growth of all. I leave you with more than enough to ponder for now.
I am Commander Ceres Anthonious “Toniose” Soltec of the Host of God of Light and Creation. My duty is that of friend, teacher, and wayshower to all who search for Truth as a path to Wisdom. Salu.
Love to All!