Five Answered Questions about the Process of Ascension

When I first started this blog I never imagined that the path of expansion and ascension would unfold in the way it has, and continues to unfold.  I'm daily amazed and filled with wonder.  The growth and expanding perspectives available to each of us increases exponentially with each passing month.  I've learned more and changed more in the past year than in the previous four or five years, without a doubt.

Without a doubt.  In so many ways our process since awakening is one of running out the doubts.  And in running out the doubts and fears we come to know who we truly are.

There was an exercise suggested to me a few months ago.  You start by identifying something that you long for, then ask Why?  Write your answer and again ask Why?  Keep answering and asking Why?  About the fifth time you ask Why? and answer, you're getting down to the real heart level.   What I found really interesting was that when I did this exercise a number time on different things I desired, I always arrived finally at the exact same answer: Because I am a Creator.

Everything is a process of creation and change.  What is created has a beginning, a period of growth and flourishing, and then it grows to it's peak and then begins to decline.  Perhaps there is a "death" or moments of chaotic destruction, and then evolution into something new, a new creation.

I've found in life that when we understand the process we are transitioning through, and can identify where we are in the process, we're then able to find within ourselves a sense of peace and confidence.  This is true even in the moments of chaos or during the leaps of faith into the unknown when we're unsure where we will land.

In thinking about the process of ascension, there are a number of aspects about the process that I wish I'd discovered sooner.  It would have saved me a lot of confusion, uncertainty, and unnecessary doubts and fears.

What then is the process of ascension?

Ascension can be described as a natural process of evolving into an ever more expanding state of conscious awareness or enlightenment.   It's the process of developing mastery.  That's a short answer.  However, having traversed along this path for a good number of years, it's become clear that the process of ascension is enormously complex and involves multiple processes, some of which occur in sequence, some which happen simultaneously, some which overlap.  Defining a specific process is really not possible because each of us experiences this path of evolving into ever expanding states of awareness in our own unique and perfect way.

There are, however, some specific aspects about the process that are true for each of us.  As I think back about my experiences thus far, there were a number of things about the process that I wish I'd known sooner.  There were a number of big, unanswered questions about what ascension entailed that led to a lot of unease.  The uncertainty of what I would likely experience caused a lot of confusion, doubt, and especially fear.  Seems it's important to share the answers I finally discovered with others. Perhaps it will make your experiences easier.  These are pretty short, concise answers.  At this point I could write a book about the process of ascension.  However, my goal in this format is to assist, not overwhelm.  Here are five question about the process of ascension that I'm glad I finally have answers to:

Question One: Ascension means to rise up, so does this mean we're going some place else? Leaving my body? transitioning through death?
Answer: We are not going anywhere else when we ascend.  We're staying here in our bodies, here on planet Earth.  Many of us have traversed the path of ascension before.  Previously in the universe, when large groups of beings ascended together, they did transition out of their bodies and then reincarnated in on a another planet operating at a higher dimension.  There have always been individuals who reached enlightenment while here on Earth.  This time, Earth has ascended into the 5th dimension.  And for the first time ever, a huge group of us are pursuing ascension and enlightenment while remaining incarnate in our bodies here on the planet.  This is the reason we have such immense support from the beings of light in the non-physical.  The entire universe is cheering us on.

Question Two: What's going to happen to me in this process?
Answer: The process occurs first at the mental level, then emotional, then physical level. It begins at the mental level with a spiritual awakening.  We realise we are more than this person in this lifetime.  As you view yourself and the world around you, you begin to perceive that there is more going on than you used to see.  There's a paradigm shift in how you understand yourself and the reality surrounding you.  You begin to see things differently and reach deeper understandings about yourself, your relationships, your purpose, and the meaning of life.  What we are consciously aware of expands.

While awareness expands at the mental level, changes begin taking place at the emotional level.  With deeper understanding, we begin healing old emotional wounds.  Misunderstandings about relationships and events we experienced become visible to us. There is a process of healing, sorting and reordering, clearing out, and releasing old thoughts, ideas, beliefs, and emotions that no longer fit for us.  Many of us experience physical symptoms, such as bouts of tiredness, not being able to sleep, aches and pains, congestion, as our bodies adjust to old energies and emotional frequencies being released, new energies coming in, and a continual elevation of our vibration.

Those at the leading edge of this transformation of human consciousness are just now beginning the process of physical changes.  Much of these changes occurs at the DNA level and involves activation of a greater percentage of our DNA's built-in capacity to work at the quantum level.  Some of the best information I've found about our changing DNA is Kryon, channelled by Lee Carroll.  If this is of interest to you, I would strongly recommend reading The Twelve Layers of DNA, An Esoteric Study of the Mastery Within (Kryon Book 12).  You can also find lots of info in the Kryon channelings about DNA and the Innate, our DNA's communication system within our bodies (See the link in the side bar).

Question Three?  What does "expansion" really mean?
Answer: Expanding awareness.  You become consciously aware and develop understanding of more than you previously thought existed.  More about your self, your mind, your emotions, your body, and the parts of you that exist outside your physical body.  You develop a much deeper understanding about the nature of reality.  You become aware of how you create and use your energy and focus.  You expand your senses and begin to perceive in ways beyond your five senses.

Question Four: What happens to us and the planet in the dimensional shift into 5D?
Answer:  We don't go anywhere else, and we don't split off from the 3D world.  This is pure physics. The first three dimensions are length, width and depth.  Time is the forth dimension.  The fifth dimension adds the ability to compare your world with a parallel world that had the same starting point as ours, yet proceeded along a different course. In other words, operating in 5D allows you to perceive and chose a different time line.  In sixth dimension you have the ability to perceive and choose among multiple time lines and to move forward and back in time.  You can read about the 10 dimensions Here and Here.

When the Earth shifted into 5D, it opened up the door into 5D and 6D, and greater understanding and use of 4D.  As we ascend we develop the capacity to operate in these additional dimensions.  Working in 5D and 6D requires a range of new skills and development of new perceptual abilities.  Discovering and mastering these new skills takes a bit of time and practice.  For instance, if you choose to live/work in 6D, you can develop your ability to choose a specific time line you want to experience, perceive your future self living down that time line, then bring your future self into the present to experience that time line unfolding. (As a side note, I started learning some of the new skills necessary for living in 5D/6D last summer and am working to develop my abilities to operate in these new dimensions.  Have to say that I'm finding it's really fun.)

Question Five:  If we're in the middle of the Great Shift in human consciousness, how come on the one hand there are so many waking up and becoming more aware, yet on the other hand we still have the dark intentioned ones seemingly exerting more and more control over humanity?
Answer: The Great Shift in human consciousness is huge.  It doesn't happen over night, or even over a few years.  It is a three generation process.  Not everyone currently incarnate is ready or will choose to ascend.

The lightworkers. a majority of whom incarnated in three waves during the late 1940's to early 1960's, are leading the way.  Many of the lightworkers went through a major activation for ascension this past September during the equinox/eclipse cycle.  Two other waves of activation for ascension will take place around the next spring and fall equinoxes. The next generation, the millennials, incarnated with DNA already pre-wired to facilitate expansion.  They have created communication among people in every corner of the planet.  Secrets and lies can't remain unexposed when everyone can talk to everyone else.  The third generation, the children born after the December 21, 2012 solstice are coming in without the veil and already operating at 5D/6D.  I can hardly wait to witness the shake up as these children enter school all around the planet. 

Another way of looking at the process of expansion and the great shift in consciousness is this: We have been in a long, focused process on our own individual growth and expansion.  And we've needed to do this in preparation for the next phase which is just beginning.  We are now collectively turning our focus towards the greater whole in a new way.  Now is the time to connect, to come together in unity, to use our new skills to consciously manifest peace throughout the planet.  Our light is growing too strong for the darkness to remain in power much longer.

The We Are Here Video

I thought I'd share this video I came across the other day.  It's inspiring and powerful.  The first time I watched it, I almost stopped it when the credits started rolling.  Glad I didn't because they are a big part of the power.  I'd suggest watching the whole way through.

This inspired an idea about one way to hold a common vision.  It will take a bit to get my idea fully manifested, and I'll keep you all apprised on it's launching.  If you are similarly inspired to create or take action, I hope you'll post a comment and share.

With love, joy and co-creativity!

Stripping away the Clark Kents to Reveal Ourselves as Super Ones

It's sometimes a challenge to express 3D perceptions in the linear form of 2D sentences on paper.  Expressing multi-dimensional perceptions in writing, well let's just acknowledge that it's a whole new realm to master.  So I'll start with the dreams.

There's a recurring dream I've had over the past year where I'm in my house and it's filled with lots of people that I did not invite there.  In the first such dream, I discovered a door to a stair case leading to a lower level I never knew was there.  The lower level was expensively finished in a style I didn't resonate with.  It was not me at all.  I did not know any of the people who were milling around enjoying a party. In another, my unfisnished house was full of workmen, who I did not hire and who were doing things I'd not asked to be done.  One man was busy painting a wall a terrible shade of pink and I screamed at him to stop.  In a third, I was having a party and many of the people were people I knew.  Then I caught a group sneaking in through a door in the lower level that I'd not known was there.  I told them to leave.

Although I sought to discover the meaning of these dreams, I never felt I really got to the message.

Over the past week I had three dreams with a different recurring theme, my chickens.  (I have a flock of chickens that I raise.  I love my chickens, each one is named, and they bring me great joy and wonderful organic free-range eggs.)    What was the message about chickens??

Two days ago I had a dream that combined the two recurring themes.  In the dream, I went outside and saw that the tall fence around my chicken coop had been cut down to three feet and one fence gate had been taken down.  My chickens were jumping the fence and scattering about.  The adjoining neighbor was doing construction right at the property line with lots of workmen doing excavation work along my boundary.  The neighbor was older, with grey hair and a grey beard.  I voiced that this was my property and they had no right to cut down my fence.  I went inside the coop and found a room with some chickens that had not escaped.  I passed through another door and entered into a large lobby full of people.  It was still "my home".  There were a couple of vendors selling cheap jewelry and make up.  And a steady stream of people were coming in the doors.  I yelled at them all, "You have no right to be here.  This is my space.  You need to leave."  I pushed people out the doors.  The vendors started packing up to leave.  More people came in and told them to leave and I pushed them out.  I kept standing up for myself.

After I woke from the combined theme dream, I wrote it down, looking for the meaning.  This time it all came clear.  The dreams have been giving me a message about the clearing process.  We say we're being chicken when we are afraid of something, particularly something we don't need to be afraid of.  Chickens/fears scattering and fluttering away.  Progressively over the uninvited people dreams, I began standing up and demanding the unwanted people leave my space.  Standing up for my Self.  Standing up for my my sovereignty. Demanding that person(a)s that are not me, leave.

Over the course of our lives, and especially during our childhoods, we take on so many personas.  False personas. We learn to define ourselves through others' perceptions of us,  their projections, our misunderstandings. In my case, I've taken on various personas as the person who was too sensitive, too independent, too emotional, too self-centered, the one who wants too much, the one who doesn't know what she's talking about, the one who's never happy, the one who isn't worth noticing.  These personas each hold fears and limiting beliefs.

As I came to this understanding about the meaning of the dream, I saw three or four ghost-like "people" drift out of my body and float away.  They were like flat, semi-transparent, two-dimensional people made of steam.  And they vanished.  I had the image of paper dolls.  Remember those?  The cardboard people we could dress up with paper outfits, folding the little tabs over the shoulders and waist.  By way of analogy, the personas we take on are like layer upon layer of outfits on a paper doll.

From my inner knowing, I was suddenly aware of how these personas that I absorbed along the way function like lenses, obscuring, coloring, sometimes blinding, my awareness and perception.  They shaped my thoughts, shaped my inner dialogue, shaped my emotions, shaped my reactions, and limited what options I could see.  I spent the remainder of the day playing with putting my old personas on and removing them and noticing the difference in how I felt emotionally, mentally, physically.  When I release and remove the personas I feel powerful, flexible, strong, and optimistic.  I weigh less and stand straighter.  The opportunities available to me are unlimited. I feel free. My vibration is high.

I joyfully now release all the false personas I've taken on in my life thus are.  I release them and the fears and limiting beliefs they hold.  They have served me well by deepening my experiences, my understanding of the human condition, and my awareness.  They have assisted me in developing compassion for myself and others.  In releasing them, yet integrating in my learning, all that I am becomes larger and wiser.

We each have our own unique experiences and perceptions, yet I believe we are all in the process of uncovering who we really are.  Of discovering our own unique magnificence.  It's like Clark Kent stripping off the insecure, dorky façade to reveal the Superman within.

Giving the Gift of Yourself in Co-Creation

This is about Co-Creation. This about truly valuing who you are.  About recognizing what we all, in our hearts, really wish to receive from each other.  About affirming what really matters and makes a difference in our lives and the lives of those we love.

I'm big on experiential learning, thus I offer a simple 5 step exercise for completing your holiday gift-giving list.  All you'll need is paper and something to write with.

1. Write a list of the family and friends that you want to give a very special gift to this holiday season.

2. Answer the following questions:

During the past year, did you devote some attention towards learning to value yourself more?                           YES                           NO

Looking back on your childhood, what did you, as a child, most want and need more of from your parents/caretakers?  Answer with single words or short phrases.  (for example, love, companionship, attention, adventure, believing in me)  As an adult, what do you want more of in your life?


3.  Watch this video:

4. Take a few moments to consider the possibility that giving of yourself might be the most treasured gift you could give.  If I gave the gift of myself to those on my gift list, what would that look like?  What would that feel like?  What would this mean about how I value myself?

5.  Look at the list you prepared in Step 1 and decide what special gift of yourself you could give to each person on your list.

Here are a few thoughts and ideas to spark your creativity....Did you ever make and give a coupon book to your parent with coupons for things like breakfast in bed, a back rub, helping to make dinner or wash the car?  Giving the gift of yourself lends itself well to handmade coupon books and gift certificates.

For children:
An afternoon playing cards or board games
A walk through the park in search of where the elves and faeries live
Making cookies or a gingerbread house together
A scavenger hunt
A nature adventure to discover who lives under the rocks
A summer afternoon playing in the sprinkler
Five coupons for reading a story
A magical tea party

For adults:
A mini one day/afternoon vacation

Valentine's Day party
Taking a cooking or art class together
A special surprise adventure day
Helping with a big project
I will teach you something you want to learn from me
A magical tea party

When you give the gift of yourself, you are giving your loved one the opportunity to come together and co-create special moments, the moments that nurture our hearts and spirits, the moments that people treasure and remember.

What an Awesome Instant Vibration Raiser

Love this!  Nothing short of brilliant. What an awesome, instant vibration raiser!

Read about Michael Binder who created this dance mashup on DIYnetwork.

Peeling Back the Layers, Blooming Like the Lotus

It is so magical the ease with which inner knowing and guidance come in to us now.  All we have to do is ask the question or make the request for information and it shows up quickly, between immediately to 48 hours.

I've been asking for knowing about what is getting in my way. 

I see now that my answers have been coming in in layers.  Peeling back the onion, as we say.  This awareness reminded me of Stanley Kunitz' beautiful and powerful poem, The Layers.  On rereading it, I find his poem to be a perfect expression of where I am today.  What he expresses about the journey through life is so universal.  And it was his inner knowing that directed him forward to "Live in the layers, not on the litter."  In this post, I could have simply written: "This is where I am today" and posted Stanely Kunitz' poem.  But that would be a cop out and this post is about making the decision not to cop out nor live on the litter anymore.

Back to the point, I've been asking for knowing about what is getting in my way.  And every few days I receive another insight about a limiting belief I was not consciously aware of, a fear to release, a prod to take action in some way. 

I used to be a night owl, however, the early morning epiphanies I'm now experiencing have made me love the mornings and the moments when I'm first just waking up.  This morning brought a very big Ah Ha.  Sitting with my cup of coffee, my awareness shifted and I suddenly saw with clarity the pattern that is not serving me at all in my desire to move forward creating the life that I love.  My answer to what is getting in my way is pure and simple, myself and a fear.

We've been getting the messages recently about now is the time for us to have the courage to be and express ourselves as who we truly are.  Well I've always been a free spirit, regardless of the disapproval I've encountered from some along the way.  So I brushed off the guidance as an issue I didn't really need to focus on.  This morning I realized that is not the case at all.  In fact the fear of expressing who I really am is right at the heart of the matter.

The pattern I now recognize in myself is one of holding back from expressing who I am.  Like in creating my new business.  Rather than just move forward with all the steps necessary to launch this business, I've been creating excuses, obstacles, stalling, and generally employing anything I can to avoid putting the real me out in the world.  I can't do this because that hasn't happened yet.  I need to take care of that before I can finish up the copy for my website, I'm feeling to out of alignment to do much today.........Yada yada, yada.

What most often holds us back from openly expressing who we are is the fear of what we might experience, and in particular what we might feel.  Being a Lightworker, we've had a hard road to this point full of rejection, judgement, feeling all alone, feeling that we don't fit in, feeling disappointment.  Years ago doing personal growth work with a therapist, she identified that disappointment wove a continuous thread through my life.  Yet I somehow found the strength and courage to keep imagining what I could create and going forward. Looking back from today, I see the thread of disappointment continued on, weaving through so many of my endeavors. To the point that the fear of feeling more disappointment is my biggest obstacle.

Now I could spend some more days roaming around in my head looking at how this disappointment or that one influenced me, but that would just be continuing to live the pattern I choose now to release.  Instead, I can choose to cast the fear aside, center into resonance with my immense strength and courage and go for it.  And that is exactly what I'm choosing to do.  I am fed up and done with feeling stuck, which frankly, feels just as bad as the disappointment I've been seeking to avoid.

I have always known in every cell in my body that I have the power to create what I want.  That knowing has never left me.  Much of the disappointment, and deep frustration, I've felt for so many years is about how hard it's been to manifest what I want in the 3D world.  Like swimming upstream in cold molasses.   Yet we're in 5D now.  Everything is different.  The knowing and guidance we request comes to us with ever increasing speed.  The massage comes through in every direction: "Now is our time for living in joy!"  And I love and respect myself too much to let some imagined fear of perhaps feeling disappointment get in my way from experiencing the joy of being and expressing who I truly am.  When we hold ourselves back because of the fear of the bad things we might experience, we then miss out on all the good things we can experience.

Peeling back, releasing and clearing.  It's all part of the process of experiencing ascension in the physical.  We spiral upwards.  We peel back the layers and with each layer our awareness expands, our understanding deepens, and we clear away a bit more of the fog we experience as the veil.  This is our process of blooming.  Of opening up with courage and strength to reveal the lotus flower that we each are.

Now, I have some work to do.  Tomorrow I'll finish up and post the blog post about vibrations that I started yesterday.  With much love, Helen

Clearing is So Much Easier Now Than It Used to Be

We are in uncharted waters in our journey of expanding the consciousness of humanity on the planet.  By sharing our new and widening perspectives, our experiences, feelings and observations, and our epiphanies (!), we are co-creating New Earth.

Each morning now I close my eyes and focus on the stillness in my heart.  I feel/see/sense a ball of brilliant white light fill my heart, then radiate outward, filling my whole body, my aura, and beyond.  I open wide my chakras and shoot the white light down into the center of the earth and upward into all that is.  And I call in a direct connection with my Divine Self, the source of my most expanded inner knowing.  I ask that my Divine Self maintain this connection throughout the day, guiding me, filling me with knowing.   That each day this connection strengthen.  Until I am in continual connection with my inner knowing.  I can hardly wait for this to happen.

I'm fast discovering that as I deepen my connection with my Divine Self, the knowing and answers to my questions and requests for information come quickly.  That is what happened when I asked for guidance as to what was getting in my way in starting my new business.  It only took a few minutes for the answers to come into my awareness.  How wonderful is that?  That we can now easily open up our awareness and receive the support and knowing we request whenever we want it, it's all so magical.

I shared in the last post that I was going to dive in and sort out the feelings, perceptions, and limiting beliefs that were tripping me up in my efforts to create my new business.  I had trepidations because in the past such an endeavor required re-experiencing a bunch of painful events from my past.  But that's not at all how the process unfolded. 

I remember reading somewhere a few years ago that we no longer have to rehash old stuff to release it.  At the time, I discounted this guidance because I'd known how important it was to really examine deeply every facet of a painful or difficult experience in order to reach a new level of understanding and extract the wisdom and benefit I received from the painful experience.  However, what I'm discovering now is that it is much easier to unearth, release and clear old stuff than it used to be. We still need to identify where we picked up the old, unserving beliefs.  Yet our process no longer requires that we re-experiencing all the old unpleasant emotions from our past experiences.  Some very nice benefits of moving in our new uncharted waters.

This is the process I went through in the past couple of days to identify and clear the limiting belief that was getting in my way.  It was an intuitive mix of tools I've collected in the past year or so.

First I made a list of the work experiences that I'd found disappointing, hurtful, and that filled me with despair and resentment.  In doing this I was writing out briefly, my stories:  When I worked here, they didn't pay me very much even though I was doing the bulk of the work for the organization.  Others got raises and accolades, but I did not.  When I worked there, I carried a much greater work load than most of my co-workers, I worked in a constant state of stress to keep up with this unmanageable work load, but I was paid less and received smaller annual salary increases than others, .... etc.  Reviewing the list, it was easy to see the pattern.  And Bingo! there was the limiting belief I'd developed from these experiences:  No matter how hard I work, I never get the benefits I should receive in exchange.  Instead I get disappointment, hurt, resentment, and the continual message that I'm not good enough. 

With an underlying, and unconscious belief that my best work would be pointless, and eventually harmful to me, it's easy to see why I'd dig my heals in and avoid anything that resembled development of a new career.

Next I rewrote my story.  This pattern in my career actually had it's roots in my early childhood growing up in a large family where there was no affection and very little attention or acknowledgement of who I was.  Yet I am not the person I was back then.  I'm not even the person I was a year ago or a month ago.  I was just a child, with very limited awareness and skills, certainly not the level of awareness and skills I have now.  When I moved into adulthood, the limiting belief was already fully embedded and operating.  I created my career experiences in conformance with my limiting belief, all of it unconsciously. Standing up for myself in a matter of fact manner was not in my vocabulary at all during my earlier career.  When I did ask for what I felt I deserved, it was done full of resentment and anger, and thus wasn't well received.

An image that came to me in this process was of an egg and a young eagle.  I was an egg back then and now I'm a young eagle soaring in the sky.  Eggs have potential but they don't have a lot of awareness.  As an eagle, I move with ease and flow with a higher perspective and more expansive vision.  I can lift myself above obstacles in my way.

When we release an old, unserving, limiting belief, we get to choose the new empowering belief we want to replace it.  How fun is that?

At one point in this process, I recognized that I do hold a very strong belief that I am a very strong creator and I can create what I want in my life.  Yet this empowering belief definitely couldn't operate fully along side the limiting belief that no matter how hard I worked, I'd never receive the benefits of my work.  I decided that I'd simply release the limiting belief and allow the belief that I am a powerful creator who can create what I want in my life to have the space and prominence it deserves.

And as for the emotional residue held within my field, all that pain, despair, disappointment, and discouragement I'd experienced, it needs to be released as well.  It's definitely not something I want hanging around causing mischief.  And much gratitude that I do not have to re-experience it all again.  What I've done so far is to ask my DNA to release the negative emotional residue.  Our DNA has such expansive knowledge of how to go about tasks such as this, it only needs the request.  I will probably also do same EFT tapping to establish and strengthen the neural pathways for my empowering belief that I am a powerful creator.

It's such a pleasure that clearing is now so much easier than it used to be.  Much gratitude for that.  Though we've earned it.

Diving into a Pool of Despair, or How a Lightwork Comes by Their Necklace of Hidden Jewels & Pearls of Wisdom

I mark this first half of November as an anniversary of sorts.  Last year at this time, a new neighbor invited me to join her in taking a journalling class.  It all unfolded as a loving, helping hand, the one I sorely needed, reaching down to assist me in climbing out of a very deep dark hole I was engulfed in.

And this past year has been a year of immense growth, expansion, wonder, and progress on the continuous path of ascension.  A year of finding courage, expanding perspectives, welcoming epiphanies, identifying, releasing and replacing limiting beliefs, clearing old energy patterns, and deepening my understanding of myself and how we create through our consciousness.  There has been so much to celebrate.  My friendship with the new neighbor has become one of dear, trusted allies on the path.  One afternoon this past July, she shook her head and said that she could hardly believe I was the same person she'd first met last November.

Yet still, as I strive to shift my circumstances and create the life I want, one that truly reflects who I am now, I come up against one obstacle after another.  It's been maddeningly frustrating.  I keep bringing myself back to center, tune up my frequency, take action towards what I want to create, trust and believe in our power, my power, to manifest with grace and ease.  Applying all that I know as the process of creation.  Hitting another obstacle, pressing forward, looking deeper within to uncover what inside is creating the resistance I chafe against.

With the transition through the September Equinox, and full lunar eclipse, we have moved into uncharted territory, one that supports our ever increasing capacities to master the use of our thoughts, emotions, beliefs, and inspirations to create what is good for us and so equally good for all.  The obstacles we encounter now are reflections of inner resistance and discord.  They always have been, only now we have the capacity to observe and understand this process.  And now the process of manifestation unfolds into the material so much faster than before.

I've been watching my hidden inner discord manifest as obstacles.  It's at times a stunning demonstration of my ability to create.  I can feel the power.  But who  on Earth wants to excel at creating obstacles for oneself??? Not I.  Not you either, I'm sure.  I want to create what is good and beautiful and what supports and nurtures the expansion of consciousness within humanity on Earth.  The journey has been long and it's now our time for living in joy.

Last night after reading who-you-are-becoming, the latest channelled message from Meredith Murphy, I connected to my Divine Self and asked once again for inner knowing about the limiting beliefs and emotional vibrations within that are getting in my way.  The answers came so quickly.  First I saw with clarity, a pattern of avoidance I operate in about so many things in my life - creating my new business, creative projects in my home, reaching out to connect with others.  The pattern is immense and pervasive. Then came the knowing of where this pattern arose.  It's a pattern born, despite putting forth great dedication and perseverance, and obtaining much accomplishment, of experiencing in my career immense anguish, defeat, and despair.  The depth of these feelings has been so large, I've cordoned them off and avoided them, as well as anything that even remotely resembled work.  It's never been my style to avoid tough issues and feelings.  For more than thirty years I've ventured in to feel, sort, learn, and resolve the pain I've experience.  Why  would I create a pattern of avoidance this time.  I sense my fears arise due to the enormity of it all.  And feeling defeated.

Inner knowing is always right.  And as confirmation, there it is, a big murky pool of anguish, despair and defeat I've buried within because it's felt too large to deal with.  As if avoidance ever works.  Dealing with the consequences, the unwanted manifestations arising as a result of this unresolved pool of pain, is now totally unacceptable to me.

So today is journalling day.  Avoid no more!  I'm diving inward with uncompromising courage to explore the depths, sort and release these painful emotions.  I'll rewrite my stories about my career experiences, examine the limiting beliefs that create resistance and obstacles, and draft the new empowering beliefs I choose for their replacement.  Basically clean out Fibber Magee's closet, as it were.  It is my intention to emerge from this process re-newed in spirit, re-freshed in confidence and self-trust.  To realize more fully who I am, and in the process come into possession of some new pearls of wisdom for my necklace.  You see, one of the added perks of being a Lightworker is that along the often arduous path of ascension, we pick up hidden jewels and pearls of wisdom along the way.

Onwards into the depths!

Choose Wisely What You Focus On - Part I

"What we focus on expands."

Have you heard this before?  I have, many years ago.  I believed I understood and absorbed this basic law of how our Consciousness creates.  Thus I'd tucked it away in mental file drawers thinking I had incorporated it into the way I live.  Ha ha ha.  The laugh was on me, so to speak.

This is the story of how I unwittingly created a fiasco for myself on a grand scale,  and as a result, really learned my power, our power, to create by where we focus our thoughts and emotions.

If you read my last post, you probably read between the lines that I've been involved in building a house.  The house project is a big part of why I was an absent blogger for so long.   I'm not going to give you the whole sequence of events or this will turn into the longest blog post on record.  Suffice it to say,  all seemed to start off well, but then problems arose, first with the design and plans, then builder incompetence, dishonesty and horrendous fraud.  To say this was all very upsetting is an understatement.  I spent many months hiring numerous construction experts, a forensic accountant, and legal representation, all at great expense.  The fraud was insidious, woven through every line item on the builders monthly statements.  It took me hours and hours, and hours first to obtain, and then sift through invoices, time sheets, and the calendar of events, in order to identify and quantify the extent of the fraud. As well as identifying the defects in construction that had to be corrected.  I spent six months devoting my time and focused attention to all the problems created by this dishonest builder.  Throughout it all I seethed with anger, a very potent and highly charged emotion.  I felt disappointment, exasperation, despair, pain, and fear about my future financial stability due to the large economic losses, .


When construction resumed with a new builder, it didn't take very long until more problems arose with construction.  Thankfully, I did not experience the same outright fraud, that I'd protected myself from.  The problems fell into the category of incompetence - mistakes made and then lying about how easily they could be corrected, then walking away instead of correcting them as they were contractually liable to do.

As a result, I've spent twice as much as was originally budgeted and wiped out my savings for retirement. I've still got significant expenses to redo all the plumbing and come up with some solution to the long, jagged cracks through out the polished concrete floors which can't be repaired, before I can finish putting in the kitchen, bathrooms, etc.  I've been living in an unfinished for over a year.

Throughout this whole scenario, I asked myself over and over again "What have I been doing to create this?"

Over the past year I reflected on this questions from every perspective I could find.  I dove into a deep level of introspection about many parts of myself.  I read more books.  I re-read the Law of One.  I looked for a job.  Finally, I began to take a break from all the housing construction issues and do a few things for myself, like take a journalling class and meeting some new people.  I worked on releasing all the negative feelings and raising my vibration.

Then one day, after spending a good part of the day researching about filing complaints with various regulatory agencies against the builder and irresponsible subcontractors, I found myself, once again, with thoughts and emotions churning away inside about all the construction problems.  It felt awful, especially after I'd been able to move out of that state for a reasonable period.  I suddenly stopped myself, thinking "I'm not going to sink back into focusing on all the construction problems and how angry I am about them.  I'm going to keep my vibration up."  And I went to sleep.

Next morning, in the lushness of theta brain wave state as I was waking, came the answer to how I created this construction fiasco.  I created them by focusing my thoughts and attention on problems, while intensely feeling strong, low vibration emotions.  In doing so, I just created more and more construction defects.  It's interesting that I received the answer only after I took action to stop myself from focusing my attention and feelings on something I knew was counterproductive to me.  I got the confirmation after I demonstrated that I'd gotten the lesson.


At the moment of this realization, I understood so clearly just how powerful I am (we are) at creating by where we focus our attention and our emotions.  What we focus on expands.  Expands in this context means: increases, multiplies, becomes more ingrained in our reality.

Now I understand why I received guidance a few years ago Not to keep focusing on all the dastardly deeds of the elitist cabals and violent earth changes.  I'm too powerful to focus attention and anger and fear on the dark things that happen.

The lesson from this story can be applied in so many positive ways.  Exploring how we can use our ability to create is worth a longer discussion.  Maybe let this sink in for a bit, look at how you may have been creating in your own life, and I'll continue this exploration in Part II.

Welcome Back! What's New Besides All of Us?

Yesterday I logged into this blog for the first time in a very long time.  It's been over four years since I last posted??? How did so much time go by? In honestly, I made two serious attempts at posting over the past few years, only to have blogger delete all but the first two or three sentences of the posts when I clicked publish.  After a few choice words, I figured it was what was meant to be.  Then more time passed.

One thing really struck me yesterday when I logged on, I noticed in the site's behind the scenes statistics that there had been over 400 page views in the past month, despite no new posts in years.  Wow!!

I take this as an invitation.

The questions is Where do I begin after being a dormant blogger for so long?

Well, this started me thinking about what's transpired in my life, both my outer life and inner life, over the past four years.  There's no way I'd bore either you or me with a recapping events.  However, in reflecting I'm struck by how incredibly much growth and change has occurred on all fronts.  It's really astounding how much and how quickly we are all growing and expanding. 

So, as a little exercise, I wrote out a list of What Have I Learned? in the past four years.  Here goes...

I learned how to:
Hatch baby chicks in an incubator
Raise chickens
Make souffles
Weld steel
Polish stone
Cast concrete
Design and make tile mosaic trim
Rewire light fixtures
Make my own light fixtures with vintage glass and brass lamp parts
Refinish vintage brass hardware
Make Almond milk
Can brandied cherries
Ferment probiotic kefir and kombucha
Make my own almond flour 
Bake Paleo brownies, bread, and cookies using almond flour
Track down devious dogs who escaped through the fence
Repair holes in the fence line
Choose an architect
How Not to choose a builder
How to choose a builder
Put in a greenhouse
Plant an orchar
Make chia pudding
Sell stuff on Ebay
Seal stone tile
Live in an unfinished house
Adapt modern door hardware to use antique door knobs
Source building materials
Muscle test to find which box something is in
Muscle test for Truth
Be happy

I've learned about:

Antique hardware and Victorian era cast bronze door knobs
How metal casting is done
How metal plating is done and undone
All the parts and skills that go into building a house
Granite, olivene, jade, and field stone
Eco toilets
Geothermal heatings systems
Solar energy systems
The importance of Integrity
Quantum physics
Letting go of a "the SHTF time is coming" mentality
The effectiveness of Joy in the downfall of the NWO cabals

The features of vinyl vs. wood windows
Multipoint door hardware
Using reclaimed construction materials
The role dolphins and whales play in maintaining the harmonics of Earth
How important it is to use my authority when managing a big project

How expensive fencing is
Maintaining gravel "crush" driveways
Native trees of the Pacific Northwest
Bad plumbers
Shrinkage cracks in concrete
Outrageous electric bills when they charge the wrong rate per kilowatt
More of the true history of our planet
This Great Shift being a multi-generational process
The dangers of vaccines
The dangers of GMO foods
How much better I feel when I take my vitamins
How to create a website
How valuable much of my food storage has been
What a total waste much of my food storage has been
Being the mother of the bride when your daughter is 8,000 miles away
How wonderful it is to have my sister live nearby
Creating a new circle of like-minded friends
Creating a new consulting and organizational transformation business
Being a bridge-builder to New Earth

How we have already surpassed our expectations for this lifetime
How loved I am in the universe
Restarting a blog


On the path of Spiritual growth I've learned more of the joys and wonder of:
Expansion
Integration
Inspiration
Compassion
Epiphanies!
Becoming Sovereign
Being self referencing
Releasing fear
Releasing and replacing limiting beliefs
Releasing old emotions from my physical body
Being my best cheer leader
The value of re-writing our stories
Expanding my skills at manifesting
Using the quantum field in creating
How what we focus on expands
How powerful I am at expanding what I focus on
What things not to focus on
Being able to raise my vibration at will
Installing a control panel for my frequency, abundance flow, and rebooting
Reprogramming my self-talk
The amazing multidimensional vehicle that is our DNA
Reprogramming my DNA for health and longevity
Shifting to a new paradigm of perception
Becoming a New Human
Defining what I want to experience
The importance of the questions we ask in how we see the world around us

Approaching life as a Creator
Having an expanding array of tools to use in creating

Landing on 4D/5D New Earth and leading the way in uncharted territory
Being Authentic
Loving life in embodied form
Loving myself

Being Me


Well that's my off the top of my head response.  I'm sure there are a number of things that will pop in my mind over the next day or two as  "Oh, I forgot that I also learned about ________!"

This turned out to be a very enlightening little exercise.  There have been so many times over the past few years that I felt I wasn't doing or accomplishing very much.  Making this list demonstrates to me that clearly I was wrong.  Rather, I'll now say I've travelled quite far.  I believe we all have.  Farther than we realize.  So much farther

You might considering making a list yourself of all that you've learned in the past few years.  I'll bet it has just as much diversity and scope.  And whether you write out a list or not, be sure to cheer and congratulate yourself for all that you've learned and how much you've grown.  I'll be cheering with you!

It's good to be a blogger again. Welcome back!!

Global Prayer for the Water at the Fukushima Nuclear Plant

A message from Masaru Emoto:

"2011年3月28日月曜日

To All People Around the World

Please send your prayers of love and gratitude to water at the nuclear plants in Fukushima, Japan!

By the massive earthquakes of Magnitude 9 and surreal massive tsunamis, more than 10,000 people are still missing…even now… It has been 16 days already since the disaster happened. What makes it worse is that water at the reactors of Fukushima Nuclear Plants started to leak, and it’s contaminating the ocean, air and water molecule of surrounding areas.

Human wisdom has not been able to do much to solve the problem, but we are only trying to cool down the anger of radioactive materials in the reactors by discharging water to them.

Is there really nothing else to do?

I think there is. During over twenty year research of hado measuring and water crystal photographic technology, I have been witnessing that water can turn positive when it receives pure vibration of human prayer no matter how far away it is.
Energy formula of Albert Einstein, E=MC2 really means that Energy = number of people and the square of people’s consciousness.

Now is the time to understand the true meaning. Let us all join the prayer ceremony as fellow citizens of the planet earth. I would like to ask all people, not just in Japan, but all around the world to please help us to find a way out the crisis of this planet!!
The prayer procedure is as follows.


Name of ceremony:
“Let’s send our thoughts of love and gratitude to all water in the nuclear plants in Fukushima”

Day and Time:
March 31st, 2011 (Thursday)
12:00 noon in each time zone

Please say the following phrase:
“The water of Fukushima Nuclear Plant,
we are sorry to make you suffer.

Please forgive us. We thank you, and we love you.”

Please say it aloud or in your mind. Repeat it three times as you put your hands together in a prayer position. Please offer your sincere prayer.

Thank you very much from my heart.

With love and gratitude,
Masaru Emoto
Messenger of Water"

"I Am My Voice that I Haven't Known"

This is so beautiful I wanted to share it. I don't know the name of the song or songwriter. A friend translated the lyrics (Post note - See my comment following for correction and attribution):

"I am my voice that I haven't known,
I am the truth inside the chaos,
I am the rights of the people suffering in tyranny,
I am freedom fighters that aren't afraid,
I am the secrets that didn't die,
I am free, my words are free!"
...
Singer is Amel Mathlouthi



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A9mY_GsQZ2w&feature=related

A Brief Lesson on Manifesting

I start with where I am, move outward, then back to center. Lessons appear at every level.

Last week I flew from Washington to Washington, then back again. I'd almost canceled the trip because it seemed pointless. Communication with some siblings was so fractured and unresponsive. I've been conversing with my mother via thought messages delivered through higher levels, a very effective method as her physical status declines.

Since Christmas, a month ago, I processed through all the feelings raised in the course of conversations and emails with my siblings. And I let go. I let go of trying to influence the situation. I let go of hopes of that the communication patterns would change. I let go of wanting to maintain relationships with a couple of them. I let go of wishing they would recognize the value of my professional experience in law and health care and terminal illness. I let go of hopes that finances would be managed to avoid great losses to my mother's estate in this volatile economic state. I let go of hoping they would wake up. After letting go of all this, there didn't seem much point to my making the trip back to my mother's home, but I went anyway. Ticket paid for and all.

What wonderful gifts I received in response to all my letting go.

My brother picked me up at the airport, even though my connecting flight had been delayed in Kansas City and my plane didn't arrive until ten minutes of midnight. He was sitting on a bench just outside the security gate, waiting for me. Smiling. He said he'd figured I'd be hungry when I arrived and had gotten some treats to share. This never happened before. We chatted until 2:30 AM about political and world events. "I'm so glad to talk with you about all this, I've been feeling so alone with no one to talk to who would understand." Music to my ears, as they say. My brother has woken up. My sister arrived the next day. She is now wide awake too. Only two still hanging out in sleep. Then in the moments before leaving for my return flight, one dozing sister echoed my alert that we needed to shift investments out of municipal bonds before the cascade of state bankruptcies begins. Wow, what I wanted is appearing!

Sometimes I almost forget the key to manifesting...put out clearly what you want, then let go completely of the outcome. Leave wiggle room in your perspective as to what may appear. So very important to leave wiggle room so that miracles have space to emerge, when they're so inclined. Notice what changes, even if small or subtle.

Or not so subtle. Look! People are waking up all over!

Out in the whole wide world the courageous Tunisians have modeled the effectiveness of standing up. One dictator out, cabinet cohorts out. What it took was one 26 year old vegetable vendor, Mohamed Bouazizi, repeatedly harassed and humiliated by police and denied the permit to sell vegetables, setting himself a fire and igniting an overthrow. Now Egypt. I've been glued to the computer all day watching the news. This is the best first person account I've read. More than one source reports today that some Egyptian military are standing with protesters, rather than with the police. Word out is that the people of Jordan and Yemen are following right along. Global revving up. We're watching The Powers That Were's biggest fear emerge into reality, the people are waking up, standing up, and claiming their Free Will.

The US government isn't sure how to respond. How could they, without revealing their true agenda? Our tax dollars paid for the armored vehicles being used against the peacefully protesting Egyptians. Everything is interconnected. The elite have done a very good job marketing freedom and democracy throughout the world, and people have listened. As their hypocrisy continues to be unmasked, they'll have to reap what they sowed; people demanding freedom. The irony is not to be missed.

I'm sitting here at my kitchen counter, in the land of the freedom and democracy, wondering as I type whether anything I've written here could be misconstrued as inciteful. Or if following friends' posts on Facebook could draw unwanted attention? Getting first hand accounts and photos from Tunisia and Egypt as their revolutions unfold is a good thing, isn't it?

I've put out what I want: a quick, non-violent transformation of the planet into what it was meant to be, a place where we all, each and everyone, live in peace, joy, and harmony with one another and with the natural world. I've let go of the outcome. Because I really don't know what's going to happen. My perspective leaves plenty of wiggle room for possibility. Even if small, I notice the changes for the better. The act of observing changes the outcome.

We are four weeks into the year of more change than we can comprehend.

Letting Go in Macro and Micro

The immense changes taking place as we progress through this Great Transition play out in our individual personal lives. Last Saturday I read Les Visible's post, What if We all Just tried a Little Harder? in which he asks readers to do what they can on a daily basis to alleviate suffering in the world around them. I appreciate this request that reminds us that we can make a difference in people's lives. It came at a perfect time for me.

The day before his post, I'd discovered a rather vindictive act my brother had taken against me. The overall effect of my brother's action is not of much concern to me, however that he acted at all under the circumstances and the deceptive process he chose were very unsettling. Since he was a very small child, age two or three, my brother has been angry and defensive, and he's never liked me for reasons I've never discerned. Despite this, I've treated him with kindness and understanding, and helped at times when he needed help. Reading Les' blog post when I was still somewhat stunned, really highlighted the contrast between those who seek to alleviate suffering in the world around them and those who seek to inflict it.

It's always interesting to observe the timing of when things happen. The circumstance of my mother's declining health brings me back into some level of purposeful interactions with my siblings, as compared to sporadic casual conversation, right at the cusp of a huge expansion of consciousness. I ask why am I being brought into a position of participating in decisions and plans with family members whose perception of reality differs so vastly from mine. We view everything as if we're on different channels. Their channel no longer matches my perception of reality and they don't even recognize that my channel exists. Being involved with my family of origin gives me the opportunity to confirm that I've worked through, cleared and released most of the old issues, and raises a few remnants for examination and release. That's for all of us in the next few weeks, the last phase of clearing out the Old.

Today I realize that in the past few weeks' family dealings I've made the big step to truly owning and being comfortable with the fact that I have no control. I can put out suggestions and share my observations, but I have absolutely no control over the outcome. And most importantly, that is OK, even when the outcome I foresee based on their choices is not such a good one. It is what it is. They each have the free will to make their choices. There is nothing they do or say that changes who I am. It's a good thing to measure where I am now in relation to where I came from.

I'm keenly aware that the pace of everything continues to speed up. Around the planet, the dark forces quicken the pace of implementing their atrocious plans, as if they know that their time is soon coming to an end. Which it is. Earth too has quickened her pace of releasing the old energies of fear, hatred, violence and blood spilled upon the land. Snow storms, rains and floods washing away the old. Volcanoes and quakes releasing the energies that Earth absorbed on human's behalf, energies which have never served her. Our loving Earth. The magnetic poles are shifting and the magnetosphere growing more unstable in preparation for reversal of the poles. Earth needs to flip things around. In some instances, a literal change needs to happen in order effect the figurative change.

The New will really begin streaming in at the March Equinox, with another exponential increase of energy and pace. The Old systems that sway erratically from instability will start visibly collapsing, making way for the New. We're going to have a wild ride crossing dimensional boarders from the third to the forth dimension. I find myself growing more and more excited as I consider what's just ahead. Not that I know what's going to happen, I don't. Yet some part of me appears to remember at the cellular level making such a dimensional transition before. It's an honor to be here incarnate on Earth and join with her in Ascension to the forth dimension.

I look out at the transition occurring on a planetary level and see it's reflection occurring in my family of origin. The Mothers preparing for their imminent transition to another dimension. The children each responding from the level of understanding and growth they've attained. Releasing what was known and familiar. Letting go. As Above, so Below.

Avoid a Cosmic Tragedy of Errors, Wait for Your Cue

In the early hours I woke with a jolt, second guessing whether any sentence in yesterday's post could be misconstrued as a call to revolt. Not a good feeling. It's readily apparent to all who know me that I abhor violence in any form, other than necessary self-defense, so only advocate non-violence as a means to reform. At the same time injustice sets off reverberations coursing through my soul and drives me to speak out, as it should. If there ever was one, this is a time to act with great care and forethought.

I've written on more than one occasion that one of the major lessons presented in this time is for people, individually and collectively, to own and assert their Free Will. Free Will to chose for yourself is the birth-right of each incarnate on this planet. It's so important that we acknowledge our right to choose and make our choices consciously.

Each of us came into this lifetime here on Earth to take part in this Great Shift. Prior to coming in, we each made agreements as to the roles we would play in assisting humanity through this enormous and complex process of transformation. To add extra interest to this grand experiment, we came in with the veil of forgetfulness covering our memories of who we are and why we came. Fortunately from the higher level of wholeness we've been guided by synchronicity and coincidence along our chosen path, with gentile nudges and running head-long into brick walls when we stray.

One of my chosen purposes, as I'm still discovering over time, is to inspire, uplift, assist others in understanding their magnificence. This sounds grand, and it is a very honorable role. Yet in practice there are many ways of assisting, some of which, like unintentionally pushing people's buttons thereby raising their unresolved issues for them to sort through or not as they choose, aren't so pleasant an experience on my part. Having people go off at me when my conscious intent towards them is kindness and understanding is not so enjoyable. It helped when I finally understood that assisting comes in many forms and not to take everything, really anything, personally.

In the big transition plan there are those who came in to help bring down the systems, those who came to give their life for the cause, those who will offer sustenance and compassion to the injured in the fray, and those who came to create the new. Some came to be in the public eye and others to work quietly among the masses. Early on, before I really understood anything about this Great Shift, I received very clear guidance that I was not to be involved in bringing down the systems. OK, good, I like to create new things that serve the interests of All. However, I detest injustice and inflicted suffering. And I'm the daughter of an activist, so there may be a genetic and socialization component as well. It's sometimes difficult for me to keep my mouth shut and stand by patiently until we reach the rebuilding stage. Really screws up the play if the actors are so gung-ho to get on stage that enter before their cue. And doing so could threaten my ability to fulfill my chosen mission. If I allow myself to get caught up in the bringing down phase, I might not be here for the creating anew phase. (this is not to ignore that from more than one perspective creating anew has already begun.) Hence, I want to choose my words carefully and not draw attention from certain factions of society who do not appreciate the value of human freedom.

Another of my roles is to witness. I'm not at liberty to share much at this time about those who came to witness, so please excuse the cryptic nature of what I share here. Awareness is just beginning in the larger community. I see it in the increased use of a specific word in the writings and descriptions out in the world. Though the word is not yet spoken or written in full conscious awareness of it's meaning, other than by a small handful of people. Suffice it to say that the broader conscious awareness must wait until after the dark forces are vanquished. This is true for other things as well. There is much that will be revealed when it is safe to do so.

What's important for each of now is to get really clear about what our roles are. The curtain's gone up and many of the actors are already on stage. If you're supposed to be on stage now, and you're not, get out there. If your entrance cue is coming up, be ready in the wings. If you're not on till act II or III, wait backstage, prepare yourself, help others prepare, and offer encouragement to everyone about to make their entrance. Don't crowd the wings because you'll be blocking the way for those who need to make their entrances or exits and make it difficult for the stage crew to handle light cues and scene changes. It can also distract the audience to glimpse people waiting in the wings, and believe me, the audience needs to learn everything they can from this show. Most of all, remember, you came here to Earth fully prepared. You will be magnificent!

I have a small engraved sign that used to sit on my desk when I was practicing law that says, "What would you do if you knew you could not fail."