OK, follow along. We're going on a Non-Linear Very Magical Mystery Tour. It may feel like jumping from one unrelated spot to another, but have no fear (very important, no fear), it will all come together somewhere in the space-time-matter-multidimensional universe, perhaps even in your/my awareness. This is a journey I've been on for a number of years, maybe one could say many, many lifetimes. We'll start here.....
About two and a half years ago, I was in a really down place. It was cold out, rained day after day, and I could not get my feet warm. Night after night as I went to sleep, up came a past situation that had left me full of sorrow. Each night a different one. I'd lie in bed awake all night working my way through every aspect, what I could of said or done differently, what I'd say to the person now to explain how I felt. By the next day I felt OK about the situation I'd wrestled with all night. Then another one came up, and another. Three weeks of no sleep. I was a mess. My friend said, "Oh, it's probably expansion." Expansion????? Of what? She sent me this "little movie", as I've come to call it. A powerful little movie, full of Truth. It made me feel much better so I watched it over and over again. I've seen it dozens of times and still, when it gets to the part that says, "there is within every single cell of your being enough power to light the world" a wave passes through me and tears well up in my eyes. Every single time.
I've written here a few times about my powerful feeling that there is something I ache to remember, abilities I long to reclaim. Something I yearn to connect with inside. Yet I'm not able to even remember what what it is I'm longing to remember.
A few weeks ago I posted a video interview with Dolores Cannon. Towards the end of the interview she describes how she is now working with people with serious illnesses, speaking with Higher Self and when the being at the soul level wants to be healed, Higher Self goes about healing the client's body right there in the session. This intrigued me. From deep inside surged the desire to be able to do healing in this way. After checking out about Dolores Cannon's training classes, I came away with the hunch that two weekends of hypnotherapy training wasn't going to enable me to learn this type of healing. And past life regression therapy, which is what she teaches, is not really what I'm interested in doing.
About the same time I ordered some books, including The Great Shift, which contains parts by three people who's work I resonate with, Lee Carroll/Kryon, Tom Kenyon/Hathors/Mary Magdalen, and Patricia Cori/Sirian High Counsel, and Transition Now, also by Lee Carroll/Kryon; Patricia Cori/Sirians, and Pepper Lewis/Gaia. I started with The Great Shift and now I'm half way through Transition Now. When I read, I filter everything through my inner true/false filter. Reading these channeled energy beings, in addition to my true/false filter, I attune my awareness to whether the words come from the page or from my deeper inner memory. The Sirians and Hathors resonate as if I'm reading a letter from dear friends about things we've shared together. Which I know we have.
In The Great Shift as the Sirians speak about Egypt, I feel the stone floors of the Temple at Abydos beneath my feet. When I finally go to Egypt in this lifetime I know this Temple will be just as I picture in my mind. As they speak of the relationship between Atlantis and Egypt, more of my memory returned of a lifetime in Atlantis.
The other day I thought it's about time for another message from the Hathors, and yes here it is: The Art of Jumping Time Lines. My choice is to be on the time line that unfolds to world peace, equality and respect for all people, living our lives in harmony and balance with Earth and all it's creatures. Round about now I realize that the apprehension I've felt since awakening about the challenges we may face (financial, food shortages, electricity outages, Earth changes, revolution,..) as we progressing through the Shift has been subsiding. By this I don't mean that I'm feeling that there won't be great challenges. I've shifted from apprehension to a sense of confidence and awareness of the potential for huge beneficial change. A sense of wonder.
Synchronicity strikes again! The information I asked for about bringing Higher Self in to heal started coming to me through another route, Kryon speaking in Transition Now. Here's an outline of my understanding:
Our DNA is the blueprint for all the cells in our bodies.
Every cell in our bodies contains a copy of our DNA.
"The main role of DNA molecules is the long-term storage of information." :)))) (from the Wikipedia definition of DNA)
Over 98% of our DNA is "non-coding," also called "junk DNA," meaning scientists haven't figured out what it does.
We would not evolve over thousands of years maintaining the same amount of DNA if it didn't all serve a purpose.
The DNA we are currently assembling and activating is our "non-coding" DNA.
DNA strands 3 through 12 operate on the inter-dimensional levels, or quantum field.
These "non-coding" DNA strands holds the records of all of our previous life times.
We have each had many lifetimes.
At the quantum level, all of our lifetimes are happening simultaneously.
Higher Self, which is present is this lifetime, is also present in every one of our lifetimes.
Everything you ever were and everything you've ever learned is is stored as information in your DNA, in every cell of your body.
At the quantum level, Higher Self can access and retrieve attributes, abilities, talents, and knowledge that we have possessed or developed in other lifetimes and bring them into your present. For example, a state of health, cellular structure prior to an illness or injury, the ability to play an instrument or speak a foreign language, and spiritual wisdom you've acquired through your many lifetimes.
The knowledge, skills, and abilities we developed in past life are ours. We earned them. We can make the choice to integrate them into our present lifetime.
Key is bringing Higher Self into conscious connection at all levels of our being, the physical, mental/emotional, and spiritual. And knowing all is possible at the Quantum Level.
Think about what this means...it's immense.
This is what I've so longed to remember. I finally found it. Now the real journey begins.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Those Who Came to Assist; A Short Exploration
A friend posed a couple of questions the other day and I offered to share my thoughts at this point in time. Tomorrow or next week I may have a deeper understanding.
We in the 3-D world, function cognitively by naming, defining, and categorizing. That's how we think within the limitations of 3-D existance. We're all in the process of working to uncover who we really are, and extra significance is often placed on who's in what group. Definitions first.
Lightworker - A person incarnated here on Earth in this lifetime who assists in raising the vibration of the planet, the awakening and expansion of people, and ushering in the shift of the planet and those sufficiently expanded from 3-D old Earth to 4-D New Earth. Lightworkers feel a sense of mission as well as great caring for Earth and all inhabitants on the planet. Most Lightworkers have strong intuitive abilities. Most arrived on the planet as Lightworkers. These individuals entered with the capability to raise their vibration, and assemble and activate DNA. A growing number of awakened and expanding individuals are becoming Lightworkers during this lifetime.
Indigo Person (child or adult) - The term "Indigo Children" was first coined by Lee Carroll and Jan Tober in 1999 to describe a new type of child, who parents and educators recognized as different. If you follow the Indigo Children link and page down, you'll see a list of attributes. Generally, these children are, from a young age, very intelligent and highly autonomous. They question and rebel against rote authority and rules that serve no purpose. They're very activist in nature. The name Indigo has nothing to do with the color of their aura, though there a many misperceptions about this. Indigos started arriving in large numbers roughly 18 - 20 years ago, though there are also Indigos who are now well into their adult years. Increasingly, they are coming into the planet with more than two stands of DNA assembled and activated.
Light - Love and Knowledge
Love - The universal force of Creation and Destruction
From my perspective, Indigo Children are Lightworkers. However not all Lightworkers are Indigos. In shifting the energies on Earth and raising the vibration, many types of assistance are needed. It is perhaps best to look at types of energies, rather than categories of people, as they really appear across a spectrum. In order to accomplish this grand mission, we need many types of energies operating. We need healers and activists, visionaries and implementers, whistleblowers and teachers, angels and spiritual warriors. If you think about those who are here to assist, you can see that most are a blend of a few of these traits. Earlier arriving Lightworkers tended towards a mix of healer/teacher/visionary. As we've progressed closer to Ascending more of the activist/whistleblower/spiritual warriors arrived. Their arrival is a gift because their level of vibration tipped the scale ensuring that we will Ascend. It was questionable whether we would make it prior to their arrival here.
As for the lack of acceptance by some Lightworkers for the more rebellious/activist Indigos, I think there are a number of factors to take into consideration. We must remember that all come to the planet with the veil of forgetfulness. Lightworkers are not exempt from this. They have to go through the process of awakening and expanding, just as everyone else who will be Ascending. All who came to assist come pre-programed to awaken at a particular point in their life. Some Lightworkers awaken earlier and some later.
Just as all come in veiled, all have to go through the process of expansion. Expansion involves much clearing of the physical, mental, and emotional bodies. It does not happen in one big Ah-Ha moment, rather it unfolds gradually over a number of years. Our bodies could not handle fast activation of the dormant DNA strands, it would kill us to rise so quickly in vibration, so it goes slowly. At the physical level, one can assist by detoxifying and fortifying the body with organic foods and exercise. Even then, it usually causes a variety of symptoms, for some as extreme as very debilitating, yet undiagnosed illnesses. The clearing at the mental and emotional level also takes time. In order to Ascend, all unresolved emotions from life experiences must be resolved and released so as to remove all karma which wold keep the person tied to this planet. At the mental level, again there is an unfolding of expansion of awareness and widening of perceptions.
The process of expansion happens steadily, but it's not a smooth process and there is not one particular order in which the different steps takes place. The one aspect that tends to start early and continue is the coming up of unresolved issues to examine, resolve and release.
I know a few people whose perception about the world around them expanded very quickly a few years ago. They understand all about the Illuminati and One World Order. They prepared diligently and thoroughly for earth changes and every kind of disruption. Then their intuitive awareness started to expand. But they have not yet opened to understanding their connection to source. I know others who have a strong connection to spirit and the natural world. They're immensely knowledgeable about the interdependence of the plant and animal world and keenly aware that their actions affect everything. They are only just recently becoming aware about the secret government and the collapsing of our systems.
My process started with a total shake up of my life for a year and a half, then a five week period of issues surfacing one after another after another, with almost no sleep. After that my awareness about the systems collapse and secret government emerged, followed by the sudden onset of a strange, painful and totally debilitating illness as the physical expansion started. Since the beginning of this year, my understanding of things like our interconnection and resolution of duality have evolved steadily.
All of us are still somewhere in the process of expansion. We haven't finished yet. And to top it off, most people don't yet fully understand what's happening and where we're going in this shift. That understanding is still coming together. At least it is for me and others I observe.
So in regards to the question of why many Lightworkers aren't accepting of Indigo energies, I believe it's because they haven't yet gotten through to the place where they understand enough about this great shift to recognize the valuable and necessary role that the Indigo people came here to play.
This reasoning applies to true Lightworkers. However, there are also a sizable number of people who are all into the "New Age" movement and think they are Lightworkers, when they are not. These are the people who follow the New Age genre, in the same way the Baptists here in the Bible Belt follow the church. There's the same "following" of one or more gurus, looking to others to be saved, whether it's "the Universe" or the ETs. They describe anything they don't like as "lower vibrating" and have the perception that 12/21/2012 is going to arrive like the biggest party they've ever attended. With fireworks and everything. They're going to be disappointed because the "New Age" movement is going to go down just like the churches will.
So the short answer to your question is that for true Lightworkers, any dislike or nonacceptance arises out of misunderstanding due to the limitations of their partially expanded state. For the wonna be lightworkers, they just don't get it.
It's important for us all to be understanding of each other as we move through the expansion process. It's not an easy process in any regard. There's no good or bad about how fast or slow, or who started first. What's required is that a person must progress enough to understand the keys to Ascending before the window to Ascend closes. If one develops to the level of understanding and awareness that are Key to Ascending, their DNA will have assembled and activated sufficiently to enable them to Ascend. Some of the most evolved beings here on the planet have only recently begun to expand. They've been hidden from themselves and everyone else, tucked away in remote locations or in very obscure life situations in plain view. The timing of expansion is in relation to the mission a person has agreed at the soul level to undertake. Each and every mission is vital to our success. We are all equally important.
I wonder why some Lightworkers hate or fear fellow lightworkers? Is it envy? Is it misunderstanding? Is it some lightworkers are more "street smart"? Or what? Most Indigo people (children or adults) are here as system busters...yet many Lightworkers resent hate or accuse the Indigos of being too negative .....why is this?
Pondering these questions broadens my understanding, for which I am always grateful. I'm going to just write out my thoughts and hopefully answer the questions in the mean time. Won't surprise me if it raises more questions. But that can be a good thing.We in the 3-D world, function cognitively by naming, defining, and categorizing. That's how we think within the limitations of 3-D existance. We're all in the process of working to uncover who we really are, and extra significance is often placed on who's in what group. Definitions first.
Lightworker - A person incarnated here on Earth in this lifetime who assists in raising the vibration of the planet, the awakening and expansion of people, and ushering in the shift of the planet and those sufficiently expanded from 3-D old Earth to 4-D New Earth. Lightworkers feel a sense of mission as well as great caring for Earth and all inhabitants on the planet. Most Lightworkers have strong intuitive abilities. Most arrived on the planet as Lightworkers. These individuals entered with the capability to raise their vibration, and assemble and activate DNA. A growing number of awakened and expanding individuals are becoming Lightworkers during this lifetime.
Indigo Person (child or adult) - The term "Indigo Children" was first coined by Lee Carroll and Jan Tober in 1999 to describe a new type of child, who parents and educators recognized as different. If you follow the Indigo Children link and page down, you'll see a list of attributes. Generally, these children are, from a young age, very intelligent and highly autonomous. They question and rebel against rote authority and rules that serve no purpose. They're very activist in nature. The name Indigo has nothing to do with the color of their aura, though there a many misperceptions about this. Indigos started arriving in large numbers roughly 18 - 20 years ago, though there are also Indigos who are now well into their adult years. Increasingly, they are coming into the planet with more than two stands of DNA assembled and activated.
Light - Love and Knowledge
Love - The universal force of Creation and Destruction
From my perspective, Indigo Children are Lightworkers. However not all Lightworkers are Indigos. In shifting the energies on Earth and raising the vibration, many types of assistance are needed. It is perhaps best to look at types of energies, rather than categories of people, as they really appear across a spectrum. In order to accomplish this grand mission, we need many types of energies operating. We need healers and activists, visionaries and implementers, whistleblowers and teachers, angels and spiritual warriors. If you think about those who are here to assist, you can see that most are a blend of a few of these traits. Earlier arriving Lightworkers tended towards a mix of healer/teacher/visionary. As we've progressed closer to Ascending more of the activist/whistleblower/spiritual warriors arrived. Their arrival is a gift because their level of vibration tipped the scale ensuring that we will Ascend. It was questionable whether we would make it prior to their arrival here.
As for the lack of acceptance by some Lightworkers for the more rebellious/activist Indigos, I think there are a number of factors to take into consideration. We must remember that all come to the planet with the veil of forgetfulness. Lightworkers are not exempt from this. They have to go through the process of awakening and expanding, just as everyone else who will be Ascending. All who came to assist come pre-programed to awaken at a particular point in their life. Some Lightworkers awaken earlier and some later.
Just as all come in veiled, all have to go through the process of expansion. Expansion involves much clearing of the physical, mental, and emotional bodies. It does not happen in one big Ah-Ha moment, rather it unfolds gradually over a number of years. Our bodies could not handle fast activation of the dormant DNA strands, it would kill us to rise so quickly in vibration, so it goes slowly. At the physical level, one can assist by detoxifying and fortifying the body with organic foods and exercise. Even then, it usually causes a variety of symptoms, for some as extreme as very debilitating, yet undiagnosed illnesses. The clearing at the mental and emotional level also takes time. In order to Ascend, all unresolved emotions from life experiences must be resolved and released so as to remove all karma which wold keep the person tied to this planet. At the mental level, again there is an unfolding of expansion of awareness and widening of perceptions.
The process of expansion happens steadily, but it's not a smooth process and there is not one particular order in which the different steps takes place. The one aspect that tends to start early and continue is the coming up of unresolved issues to examine, resolve and release.
I know a few people whose perception about the world around them expanded very quickly a few years ago. They understand all about the Illuminati and One World Order. They prepared diligently and thoroughly for earth changes and every kind of disruption. Then their intuitive awareness started to expand. But they have not yet opened to understanding their connection to source. I know others who have a strong connection to spirit and the natural world. They're immensely knowledgeable about the interdependence of the plant and animal world and keenly aware that their actions affect everything. They are only just recently becoming aware about the secret government and the collapsing of our systems.
My process started with a total shake up of my life for a year and a half, then a five week period of issues surfacing one after another after another, with almost no sleep. After that my awareness about the systems collapse and secret government emerged, followed by the sudden onset of a strange, painful and totally debilitating illness as the physical expansion started. Since the beginning of this year, my understanding of things like our interconnection and resolution of duality have evolved steadily.
All of us are still somewhere in the process of expansion. We haven't finished yet. And to top it off, most people don't yet fully understand what's happening and where we're going in this shift. That understanding is still coming together. At least it is for me and others I observe.
So in regards to the question of why many Lightworkers aren't accepting of Indigo energies, I believe it's because they haven't yet gotten through to the place where they understand enough about this great shift to recognize the valuable and necessary role that the Indigo people came here to play.
This reasoning applies to true Lightworkers. However, there are also a sizable number of people who are all into the "New Age" movement and think they are Lightworkers, when they are not. These are the people who follow the New Age genre, in the same way the Baptists here in the Bible Belt follow the church. There's the same "following" of one or more gurus, looking to others to be saved, whether it's "the Universe" or the ETs. They describe anything they don't like as "lower vibrating" and have the perception that 12/21/2012 is going to arrive like the biggest party they've ever attended. With fireworks and everything. They're going to be disappointed because the "New Age" movement is going to go down just like the churches will.
So the short answer to your question is that for true Lightworkers, any dislike or nonacceptance arises out of misunderstanding due to the limitations of their partially expanded state. For the wonna be lightworkers, they just don't get it.
It's important for us all to be understanding of each other as we move through the expansion process. It's not an easy process in any regard. There's no good or bad about how fast or slow, or who started first. What's required is that a person must progress enough to understand the keys to Ascending before the window to Ascend closes. If one develops to the level of understanding and awareness that are Key to Ascending, their DNA will have assembled and activated sufficiently to enable them to Ascend. Some of the most evolved beings here on the planet have only recently begun to expand. They've been hidden from themselves and everyone else, tucked away in remote locations or in very obscure life situations in plain view. The timing of expansion is in relation to the mission a person has agreed at the soul level to undertake. Each and every mission is vital to our success. We are all equally important.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
I Want to Go to Egypt. I Want to Go Home.
I want to go to Egypt. Back to Egypt. Back across the time lines. It's a longing I've held for a many years. In the mean time, I'm reading Patricia Cori's Where Pharaohs Dwell; One Mystic's Journey Through the Gates of Immortality. Her descriptions of the sacred temples and the pyramids are familiar. Images come easily to my inner vision. The book takes me back and rekindles some of my deeply held memories for many lifetimes spent there. I want more. My heart knows there are memories and connections I want to bring into consciousness.
But for a feasibility issue I hope will resolve soon, I would register right now to travel with a group being led by Stephen Mehler in October. Stephen Mehler is an Eqyptologist and a student of Abd'El Hakim Awyan, and indigenous wisdom keeper trained in the oral history. Knowledge of the times past when our connection to spirit was woven through our every day lives. Knowledge that goes back beyond the time covered by modern historians, and lacks their inaccuracies. Remember those stupid pictures in elementary school of slaves hauling the granite stones over logs to build the pyramids? Such garbage we were fed.
My longing to walk once again where I spent many lifetimes grows more intense with the passage of time. It's not a longing to remember the details of the different lives. My hunch is that much of it is better not recalled. Rather a yearning to recall into conscious mind, the spiritual knowing and open connection to our brethren from other civilizations that I possessed, that we all possessed long ago. A longing to return to a space of open understanding about the path of Ascension. To stand once again at the entrance to the Halls of Amenti.
As we progress forward drawing closer, gaining understanding of the Ascension process in this present and nearing the opening of the Halls of Amenti, I long to traverse back and resurrect within my being the knowing that will enable me to move forward. As if bringing the past up to meet the present, it will reveal the path home.
Many years ago my guides told me I have always had the ruby slippers on my feet.
But for a feasibility issue I hope will resolve soon, I would register right now to travel with a group being led by Stephen Mehler in October. Stephen Mehler is an Eqyptologist and a student of Abd'El Hakim Awyan, and indigenous wisdom keeper trained in the oral history. Knowledge of the times past when our connection to spirit was woven through our every day lives. Knowledge that goes back beyond the time covered by modern historians, and lacks their inaccuracies. Remember those stupid pictures in elementary school of slaves hauling the granite stones over logs to build the pyramids? Such garbage we were fed.
My longing to walk once again where I spent many lifetimes grows more intense with the passage of time. It's not a longing to remember the details of the different lives. My hunch is that much of it is better not recalled. Rather a yearning to recall into conscious mind, the spiritual knowing and open connection to our brethren from other civilizations that I possessed, that we all possessed long ago. A longing to return to a space of open understanding about the path of Ascension. To stand once again at the entrance to the Halls of Amenti.
As we progress forward drawing closer, gaining understanding of the Ascension process in this present and nearing the opening of the Halls of Amenti, I long to traverse back and resurrect within my being the knowing that will enable me to move forward. As if bringing the past up to meet the present, it will reveal the path home.
Many years ago my guides told me I have always had the ruby slippers on my feet.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Getting All the Selves Working on the Same Team
I had a long conversation last night with my inner child. I've been searching for paid employment and meeting much internal resistance. Which was perfectly reflected in the outer world.
My close friend, Julia, is in knowledgeable in Huna, a Hawaiian healing tradition. She's posted a couple of pieces on her blog, Cosmic Calabash, about the three selves in Huna. It's a wonderful conceptual framework for working through internal resistance and integrating your selves. Lower Self is the child, the creative, playful aspect of Self, which rules the body. Like a child, this aspect of our self can be irrational and stubborn, especially when we don't listen and alleviate concerns. Middle self is the parent or teacher, the rational, logic self, the place where we mostly operate. Higher Self is the grandparent, our inner wisdom, our expansive self. The Higher Self can't come in to join the family at the table, unless the Middle Self is parenting the Lower Self. As Julia explains, most of our problems arise from not listening to and parenting our inner child.
The conversation between my Inner Child and Middle Self, turned out to be quite helpful. She shared with me the fact that in most every job I've (we've) had, there was an issue about not being compensated, either being underpaid, not receiving promised raises for some reason, a university employer reneging on the salary offered after I started work based on a technicality about which degrees I had when they'd been clearly and honestly provided up front on my resume, or clients who got into financial straights and never paid for work completed. I'd not recognized before that there were compensation issues throughout my work history. I was however, very aware of her other complaint that quite often my dedication, time and effort was not really appreciated or acknowledged. Once her observations and complaints about our work history were expressed, it was easy for me to understand my Inner Child's reluctance to get back in one of those situations again. Can't blame her at all.
Over the course of our conversation, I, the Middle Self, both listened and acknowledged what I heard from my Inner Child. Then in parenting, I pointed out to her that we have also been recognized and received much appreciation for our work. And for the most part we've been regularly compensated for our work, sometimes, very well. Most importantly, things are very different now. We are in a very different place, thanks in large part to her. We are more whole. We've accomplished great healing and growth over the last three years. Perhaps most significantly, we now value and appreciate our self, our talents, sensitivities, and perceptions in ways we never did before. Which changes everything. When we love, value, and appreciate our self, then it is reflected in the outer world and we receive it in return. We couldn't have done this without her.
Taking the time for this conversation, part internal dialogue, part journaling, was immediately worth while. The block I'd had about pursuing a prospective employer vanished. The heart and humanity I wanted to express in my cover letter flowed easily once my Child Self was helping, rather than resisting.
Besides, the healing community where we (Middle and Higher Selves) want to work is really awesome. My Inner Child saw that when we finished the cover letter and hand-delivered our resume this afternoon. The facility looks like a cross between a resort and summer camp, with the mountains stretched out in the distance around the property. A strong sense of freedom, creativity, and plain old human-ness abound. My Inner Child will like it there. Will they have a job for me? I don't know, but they'd be crazy not to, given all I (all Selves) have to offer.
The right thing is what always happens. I'll trust the process and have faith that I am in union with all good things. Because I am.
My close friend, Julia, is in knowledgeable in Huna, a Hawaiian healing tradition. She's posted a couple of pieces on her blog, Cosmic Calabash, about the three selves in Huna. It's a wonderful conceptual framework for working through internal resistance and integrating your selves. Lower Self is the child, the creative, playful aspect of Self, which rules the body. Like a child, this aspect of our self can be irrational and stubborn, especially when we don't listen and alleviate concerns. Middle self is the parent or teacher, the rational, logic self, the place where we mostly operate. Higher Self is the grandparent, our inner wisdom, our expansive self. The Higher Self can't come in to join the family at the table, unless the Middle Self is parenting the Lower Self. As Julia explains, most of our problems arise from not listening to and parenting our inner child.
The conversation between my Inner Child and Middle Self, turned out to be quite helpful. She shared with me the fact that in most every job I've (we've) had, there was an issue about not being compensated, either being underpaid, not receiving promised raises for some reason, a university employer reneging on the salary offered after I started work based on a technicality about which degrees I had when they'd been clearly and honestly provided up front on my resume, or clients who got into financial straights and never paid for work completed. I'd not recognized before that there were compensation issues throughout my work history. I was however, very aware of her other complaint that quite often my dedication, time and effort was not really appreciated or acknowledged. Once her observations and complaints about our work history were expressed, it was easy for me to understand my Inner Child's reluctance to get back in one of those situations again. Can't blame her at all.
Over the course of our conversation, I, the Middle Self, both listened and acknowledged what I heard from my Inner Child. Then in parenting, I pointed out to her that we have also been recognized and received much appreciation for our work. And for the most part we've been regularly compensated for our work, sometimes, very well. Most importantly, things are very different now. We are in a very different place, thanks in large part to her. We are more whole. We've accomplished great healing and growth over the last three years. Perhaps most significantly, we now value and appreciate our self, our talents, sensitivities, and perceptions in ways we never did before. Which changes everything. When we love, value, and appreciate our self, then it is reflected in the outer world and we receive it in return. We couldn't have done this without her.
Taking the time for this conversation, part internal dialogue, part journaling, was immediately worth while. The block I'd had about pursuing a prospective employer vanished. The heart and humanity I wanted to express in my cover letter flowed easily once my Child Self was helping, rather than resisting.
Besides, the healing community where we (Middle and Higher Selves) want to work is really awesome. My Inner Child saw that when we finished the cover letter and hand-delivered our resume this afternoon. The facility looks like a cross between a resort and summer camp, with the mountains stretched out in the distance around the property. A strong sense of freedom, creativity, and plain old human-ness abound. My Inner Child will like it there. Will they have a job for me? I don't know, but they'd be crazy not to, given all I (all Selves) have to offer.
The right thing is what always happens. I'll trust the process and have faith that I am in union with all good things. Because I am.
A Simple Tool That Shifts the Energies
Here's an affirmation that came through for me in a recent reading. I'm finding that saying it to myself brings about an immediate shift in the energies and everything start to flow smoothly. I repeat it to myself three times.
I am in union with all good things.
I Am in union with all good things.
I AM in union with all good things.
:) ♥♥♥
I am in union with all good things.
I Am in union with all good things.
I AM in union with all good things.
:) ♥♥♥
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
100 Days of Outrage, Remember, Your Presence Changes Everything
100 Days of Outrage!
July 30th, 2010
100 Days of Outrage! Demands 100 Actions!
World-wide protests against the oil spill, the response to the oil spill, and all the lies and cover-up.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Understanding the Separation
Over the past week I've finally come to understand one of the fundamental aspects about this great Shift we are progressing through. It's been difficult to reconcile the different pieces of information about how we are moving from here to the New Earth, all the predictions about Earth changes, the activation of 12 stand DNA, end of duality, shifting to no time, and the transition from 4th to 5th dimension. How do we really get from here to there? It's like I've had lots of puzzle pieces but couldn't fit them all together to arrive at a point where I could see the continuity of the picture.
What we need comes to us at just the right moment. In the past few weeks what I needed in order to fit the pieces together and create at a level of conceptual understanding arrived, one, two, three. Much gratitude :) In this video interview of Dolores Cannon, she gives the simplest, most straightforward explanation of the separating of the old Earth and the New Earth.
It's kind of contradictory to be writing about reaching for such a realization, when I wrote a few days ago about the importance of accepting the unknown. And at the same time, it is really important to be honing in on Truth. I've always found that if I understand the particular process of transformation I'm undergoing, it makes it easier to adjust to the twists and turns along the way and to handle the dark passages. Even when I don't know which way is up and which way is down, I can still keep my internal balance if I know what road I'm on. Comfort in recognizing how far I'm come on the journey. We're entering the most challenging phase of the transition, and so I hold on to a few things that bring comfort and grounding.
The Dolores Cannon interview followed closely behind a few other descriptions about the physical separation of the planet as it shifts fully into the 5th dimension, leaving old Earth in physical form in the 4th. It's a difficult concept to grasp, as she points out. Took a good while for me, a gradual process in keeping with the gradual nature of our Ascension. Now the pieces all come together in my mind. Still lots of unknowns, yet I have a conceptual framework. We've already separated to a large extent. It occurred back in September 2008, just before the fall of the markets. It's become more and more apparent that a minority of us are operating on a different channel from the rest, the sheeple. We no longer understand their channel and they don't even know ours exists.
I'm also very relieved that at some point in the next few years, exactly when we can't be certain, we can leave the craziness, violence, greed and manipulation behind. I'm so tired of all the unkindness to each other and to our planet. So very, very tired of it all.
And it's getting crazier out there. Now 30,000 more human being will be ordered into war to kill and destroy. (Yeah Wikileaks for revealing the Truth! You're my heroes) More lies and cover-up about the still leaking oil and methane gas. HB 5741, just introduced and referred to the House Committee on Armed Services, will establish mandatory service, either in combat or for "Homeland Security" for all adults ages 18 to 42. I posted this on Facebook and not a single person commented on it???? This is reestablishing the draft!!!! With no means to be excused. Just as predicted by No Eyes back in Phoenix Rising, and the Web Bots, and on and on. I'd say they'll never get that through, but Congress does what they're told by the Illuminati government, not the people. Moving close to the Canadian boarder, with my daughter and son-in-law in tow, looks better and better even though I don't like cold climates.
I can get all riled up when I see what the dark forces are trying (specifically chosen word) to do. And I'm full of glee when their plans backfire, and backfire they will. I trust. I trust, and trust, and trust. The Light forces will prevail. We are transitioning to Oneness in New Earth.
What we need comes to us at just the right moment. In the past few weeks what I needed in order to fit the pieces together and create at a level of conceptual understanding arrived, one, two, three. Much gratitude :) In this video interview of Dolores Cannon, she gives the simplest, most straightforward explanation of the separating of the old Earth and the New Earth.
It's kind of contradictory to be writing about reaching for such a realization, when I wrote a few days ago about the importance of accepting the unknown. And at the same time, it is really important to be honing in on Truth. I've always found that if I understand the particular process of transformation I'm undergoing, it makes it easier to adjust to the twists and turns along the way and to handle the dark passages. Even when I don't know which way is up and which way is down, I can still keep my internal balance if I know what road I'm on. Comfort in recognizing how far I'm come on the journey. We're entering the most challenging phase of the transition, and so I hold on to a few things that bring comfort and grounding.
The Dolores Cannon interview followed closely behind a few other descriptions about the physical separation of the planet as it shifts fully into the 5th dimension, leaving old Earth in physical form in the 4th. It's a difficult concept to grasp, as she points out. Took a good while for me, a gradual process in keeping with the gradual nature of our Ascension. Now the pieces all come together in my mind. Still lots of unknowns, yet I have a conceptual framework. We've already separated to a large extent. It occurred back in September 2008, just before the fall of the markets. It's become more and more apparent that a minority of us are operating on a different channel from the rest, the sheeple. We no longer understand their channel and they don't even know ours exists.
I'm also very relieved that at some point in the next few years, exactly when we can't be certain, we can leave the craziness, violence, greed and manipulation behind. I'm so tired of all the unkindness to each other and to our planet. So very, very tired of it all.
And it's getting crazier out there. Now 30,000 more human being will be ordered into war to kill and destroy. (Yeah Wikileaks for revealing the Truth! You're my heroes) More lies and cover-up about the still leaking oil and methane gas. HB 5741, just introduced and referred to the House Committee on Armed Services, will establish mandatory service, either in combat or for "Homeland Security" for all adults ages 18 to 42. I posted this on Facebook and not a single person commented on it???? This is reestablishing the draft!!!! With no means to be excused. Just as predicted by No Eyes back in Phoenix Rising, and the Web Bots, and on and on. I'd say they'll never get that through, but Congress does what they're told by the Illuminati government, not the people. Moving close to the Canadian boarder, with my daughter and son-in-law in tow, looks better and better even though I don't like cold climates.
I can get all riled up when I see what the dark forces are trying (specifically chosen word) to do. And I'm full of glee when their plans backfire, and backfire they will. I trust. I trust, and trust, and trust. The Light forces will prevail. We are transitioning to Oneness in New Earth.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Just Show Up
I remember standing on a street corner at age 13, waiting to cross with the light. From deep inside came a knowing that I came to do something important in this life, although I couldn't remember anything about what it was. This awareness came to me absent any ego or taint of self-importance. No sense of being better then, more than, bigger than anyone else. Just a straight forward something important. The light changed, I crossed the street, and the memory of that moment stayed with me in the back reaches of my mental file drawer.
Over the years since then I tried to do work that made a difference in people's lives. Not because of the memory, but because if I was going to work, then why waste my time and energy on something that earned me money but didn't contribute to the overall good of the world. I ended up worked in areas most people avoided; assisting people with HIV/AIDS, people transitioning at the end of their life in hospice, advocating for adults and children leaving abusive relationships. It felt worthwhile to work in ways that helped people. At that same time I always knew none of these endeavors were the work I came here to do. That part I still didn't understand.
Over the years I received guidance that it really didn't matter what profession I chose, it was up to me. That I came here to assist and there are many ways to assist. Many ways to assist, hmmm. Over time my understanding of the ways we assist has expanded greatly. At first I thought assisting meant helping to make things better for others in a very concrete way. Actually assisting covers a broad spectrum. Gradually, I've learned to understand this.
Many times in my life I've triggered other people's buttons without meaning to at all. It used to cause me great sadness because my intent was well-meaning, my feelings those of kindness. And here was another person all flipped out and either shunning or ranting at me. A few years ago I finally saw that it was one of the ways I assist. In these situations without intending to, I was raising another person's unresolved issues so that they could deal with them, if they so chose. While never conscious on my part, and usually not on theirs either, I was assisting them just the same.
One of the most profound ways we assist each other and the planet has rarely been recognized until recently. It is our presence. We've all, including me, been well conditioned and dulled from an awareness of the power of our energy. Such a crock. We make a big difference just by showing up. The simple, yet not so simple fact of our individual energy being present on the planet alters and raises the vibration. We assist by our presence in the community we live in, we assist by our presence in the room. Just by being here, I change everything. And so do you.
Over the years since then I tried to do work that made a difference in people's lives. Not because of the memory, but because if I was going to work, then why waste my time and energy on something that earned me money but didn't contribute to the overall good of the world. I ended up worked in areas most people avoided; assisting people with HIV/AIDS, people transitioning at the end of their life in hospice, advocating for adults and children leaving abusive relationships. It felt worthwhile to work in ways that helped people. At that same time I always knew none of these endeavors were the work I came here to do. That part I still didn't understand.
Over the years I received guidance that it really didn't matter what profession I chose, it was up to me. That I came here to assist and there are many ways to assist. Many ways to assist, hmmm. Over time my understanding of the ways we assist has expanded greatly. At first I thought assisting meant helping to make things better for others in a very concrete way. Actually assisting covers a broad spectrum. Gradually, I've learned to understand this.
Many times in my life I've triggered other people's buttons without meaning to at all. It used to cause me great sadness because my intent was well-meaning, my feelings those of kindness. And here was another person all flipped out and either shunning or ranting at me. A few years ago I finally saw that it was one of the ways I assist. In these situations without intending to, I was raising another person's unresolved issues so that they could deal with them, if they so chose. While never conscious on my part, and usually not on theirs either, I was assisting them just the same.
One of the most profound ways we assist each other and the planet has rarely been recognized until recently. It is our presence. We've all, including me, been well conditioned and dulled from an awareness of the power of our energy. Such a crock. We make a big difference just by showing up. The simple, yet not so simple fact of our individual energy being present on the planet alters and raises the vibration. We assist by our presence in the community we live in, we assist by our presence in the room. Just by being here, I change everything. And so do you.
When It's Excessively Hot Outside, Treat Yourself Well
Where I live, it's been in the upper 90's almost every day since the first week in June. With not a drop of rain in the past month. I water my vegetable garden, the blueberry bushes and my fig tree. Everything else suffers in the drought.
Today is the second day in a row it's been 100 degrees, with humidity making it feel like 115. This is my answer: Gazpacho served with fresh baked Focaccia...
Gazpacho
3 very large, ripe tomatoes
1 1/2 cucumbers, partially peeled and seeded
1 1/2 green peppers
1 sweet red pepper
1/2 small red onion
2 cloves garlic, pressed
1/3 cup chopped cilantro
1/3 cup wine vinegar
2 tablespoons balsamic vinegar
1/2 cup olive oil
1 teaspoon sea salt
lots of fresh cracked pepper
Chop the vegetables into large chunks. In a food processor, pulse the tomatoes. once they are well chopped, spoon about half out into a large bowl, then process the remainder until it's a smooth puree, add to the chopped tomatoes. Repeat with cucumbers, peppers, and onion, combining with the chopped/pureed vegetables when done. Add the crushed garlic, chopped cilantro, vinegars, oil, salt and pepper, stirring until thoroughly combined. Cover the bowl and refrigerate until chilled. Taste and adjust seasonings before serving. Gazpacho gets better as the flavors meld together.
Focaccia
1 1/2 teaspoons dry yeast
1 1/3 cups very warm water
1 teaspoon sugar or honey
3 cups white whole wheat flour or bread flour, divided
1 cup whole wheat flour
2 tablespoons olive oil
1 1/2 teaspoons fine sea salt
1 -2 teaspoons coarse sea salt
1 tablespoon fresh rosemary
Sprinkle the yeast and teaspoon of sugar over the warm water in a two cup measuring cup. Let sit for five minutes. It will get foamy. Pour the yeast mixture into a large mixing bowl. Stir in 2 cups of white flour and 2 tablespoons olive oil. Cover the bowl with a damp cloth and set in a warm place to rise until doubled, about an hour to an hour and a half.
Stir in the salt, 1 cup of whole wheat flour, then stir in enough white flour to make a firm dough. Knead the dough on a floured board for five minutes. Form into a ball. Place the dough in a clean bowl, coat the dough with olive oil, cover with the damp cloth. Let rise until doubled, about an hour.
Punch down the dough, knead briefly. Cut the dough in half. You can either make two 9" x 9" Focaccias, or freeze half the dough for later.
Roll or pat the dough into a 9" square. Place the dough into a 9" x 9" pan oiled with olive oil. Coat the top of the dough with more olive oil, cover with the damp cloth and allow to rise. After about 45 minutes, preheat the oven to 450 degrees.
When doubled, make indentations all over the dough with your finger tips. Sprinkle the top with the coarse sea salt and the chopped rosemary. bake for 15 minutes. cut into squares or rectangles. Serve with olive oil mixed with salt and fresh cracked pepper and/or grated Parmesan cheese for dipping.
Note: this dough makes wonderful pizza crust too, provided you have a baking stone.
Pizza
Preheat oven and a baking stone to 500 degrees.
Roll roll half the dough into a rough circle. Sprinkle a little corn meal under dough on the bread board. Then top with a thin layer of your favorite tomato sauce, a layer of fresh spinach leaves or scattered dabs of pesto, grated mozzarella cheese, and sliced peppers, mushrooms, artichoke hearts, crumbled feta. Carefully slide the pizza onto the hot baking stone. Bake for 12 to 14 minutes, until bubbling and slightly browned.
Today is the second day in a row it's been 100 degrees, with humidity making it feel like 115. This is my answer: Gazpacho served with fresh baked Focaccia...
Gazpacho
3 very large, ripe tomatoes
1 1/2 cucumbers, partially peeled and seeded
1 1/2 green peppers
1 sweet red pepper
1/2 small red onion
2 cloves garlic, pressed
1/3 cup chopped cilantro
1/3 cup wine vinegar
2 tablespoons balsamic vinegar
1/2 cup olive oil
1 teaspoon sea salt
lots of fresh cracked pepper
Chop the vegetables into large chunks. In a food processor, pulse the tomatoes. once they are well chopped, spoon about half out into a large bowl, then process the remainder until it's a smooth puree, add to the chopped tomatoes. Repeat with cucumbers, peppers, and onion, combining with the chopped/pureed vegetables when done. Add the crushed garlic, chopped cilantro, vinegars, oil, salt and pepper, stirring until thoroughly combined. Cover the bowl and refrigerate until chilled. Taste and adjust seasonings before serving. Gazpacho gets better as the flavors meld together.
Focaccia
1 1/2 teaspoons dry yeast
1 1/3 cups very warm water
1 teaspoon sugar or honey
3 cups white whole wheat flour or bread flour, divided
1 cup whole wheat flour
2 tablespoons olive oil
1 1/2 teaspoons fine sea salt
1 -2 teaspoons coarse sea salt
1 tablespoon fresh rosemary
Sprinkle the yeast and teaspoon of sugar over the warm water in a two cup measuring cup. Let sit for five minutes. It will get foamy. Pour the yeast mixture into a large mixing bowl. Stir in 2 cups of white flour and 2 tablespoons olive oil. Cover the bowl with a damp cloth and set in a warm place to rise until doubled, about an hour to an hour and a half.
Stir in the salt, 1 cup of whole wheat flour, then stir in enough white flour to make a firm dough. Knead the dough on a floured board for five minutes. Form into a ball. Place the dough in a clean bowl, coat the dough with olive oil, cover with the damp cloth. Let rise until doubled, about an hour.
Punch down the dough, knead briefly. Cut the dough in half. You can either make two 9" x 9" Focaccias, or freeze half the dough for later.
Roll or pat the dough into a 9" square. Place the dough into a 9" x 9" pan oiled with olive oil. Coat the top of the dough with more olive oil, cover with the damp cloth and allow to rise. After about 45 minutes, preheat the oven to 450 degrees.
When doubled, make indentations all over the dough with your finger tips. Sprinkle the top with the coarse sea salt and the chopped rosemary. bake for 15 minutes. cut into squares or rectangles. Serve with olive oil mixed with salt and fresh cracked pepper and/or grated Parmesan cheese for dipping.
Note: this dough makes wonderful pizza crust too, provided you have a baking stone.
Pizza
Preheat oven and a baking stone to 500 degrees.
Roll roll half the dough into a rough circle. Sprinkle a little corn meal under dough on the bread board. Then top with a thin layer of your favorite tomato sauce, a layer of fresh spinach leaves or scattered dabs of pesto, grated mozzarella cheese, and sliced peppers, mushrooms, artichoke hearts, crumbled feta. Carefully slide the pizza onto the hot baking stone. Bake for 12 to 14 minutes, until bubbling and slightly browned.
Accepting the Unknown
I had a reading done a couple of weeks ago. This passage from the reading speaks to all of us:
"Part of the biggest step is for those who have chosen to expand to be able to walk without needing to know, and this is not to be confused with true knowing which comes from trust and faith in a perfect universal order. To know that there are no certain answers, that the unknown is the basis of all creativity, and that all need to accept the unknown in order to discover and develop to their full potential."
Accept the unknown; Basis of all creativity; In order to discover and develop our true potential.
During the late 1980's, I worked at a small grass-roots organization in Washington, DC doing case management and counseling with people living with HIV/AIDS. It was early in the epidemic, AZT was the primary antiviral drug, the average life expectancy was 6 months, a number of long-term survivors made it two years or more, despite the toxicity of AZT. Four months after I started working there, all three of my coworkers had died of complications from the disease. The Chairman of the organization's board of directors begged me please not to leave, they were searching for replacements.
But I had not considered leaving. You see, there is a major benefit that comes from working with people dealing with a terminal illness. We have only right now. None of us can count on what will be tomorrow. Clear up your relationships. Each day do what matters and makes a difference in the world. Do not wait for another day to express your feelings or to tell someone what they mean to you.
My clients role modeled this each day. Working there kept me in the now. Because we don't know. What will happen is always unknown and when I accept this, I am always rich in the moment and my days are filled with joy and appreciation for all that I am given.
"Part of the biggest step is for those who have chosen to expand to be able to walk without needing to know, and this is not to be confused with true knowing which comes from trust and faith in a perfect universal order. To know that there are no certain answers, that the unknown is the basis of all creativity, and that all need to accept the unknown in order to discover and develop to their full potential."
Accept the unknown; Basis of all creativity; In order to discover and develop our true potential.
During the late 1980's, I worked at a small grass-roots organization in Washington, DC doing case management and counseling with people living with HIV/AIDS. It was early in the epidemic, AZT was the primary antiviral drug, the average life expectancy was 6 months, a number of long-term survivors made it two years or more, despite the toxicity of AZT. Four months after I started working there, all three of my coworkers had died of complications from the disease. The Chairman of the organization's board of directors begged me please not to leave, they were searching for replacements.
But I had not considered leaving. You see, there is a major benefit that comes from working with people dealing with a terminal illness. We have only right now. None of us can count on what will be tomorrow. Clear up your relationships. Each day do what matters and makes a difference in the world. Do not wait for another day to express your feelings or to tell someone what they mean to you.
My clients role modeled this each day. Working there kept me in the now. Because we don't know. What will happen is always unknown and when I accept this, I am always rich in the moment and my days are filled with joy and appreciation for all that I am given.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Re-Direction Energies Towards Expansion
I'm striving to spend less time on the computer each day, to spend more time with my own perceptions un-inundated with the latest news about gradually unfolding genocide occurring in the GOM. In the past two days I slowed myself to listen to my heart. There is a passage in the Channeling of Kryon (same one I posted the other day) that speaks about slowing to the pace of God Time. With what now takes place in the outer world my mind wants to jump to action, yet looking back at the past two years, it always unfolds at a slower pace than I'd expected in my thinking mind. There is time to slow, listen and follow my heart. I'm rather tune myself to operating on God Time. I'd rather integrate the presence of my Higher Self within my earthly body. Our Higher Selves have access to way more information than any of us can find on the internet.
I know, both in my heart and mind, that I am Divinely protected. Many of us are. My guidance clearly stated that I am safe here for now, they are working on assistance to ensure this. Though the time to move is near, I do not need to rush. This may only mean the difference between moving in three months as opposed to six weeks, though in this bit of extra time I sense that more good will flow from me and to me throughout the transition. Any protection extended to me will also extend to this wonderful community of people I live amongst. Whatever benefit my energy provides as I move about the community can have it's effect. Giving a little more time allows for the gathering of whatever I will need in whatever new place that I'm headed. All is in Universal Order.
I have great and deep love and care for humanity. Part of me wants to warn and alert people to what is unfolding. However, the other part of me knows this is not my role, and it backfires on me whenever I start telling anyone about the need to watch what is really going on. They don't want to hear. It's better for me to recognize that each person has their own process of awakening, even if they have to be shaken by events in order to wake up. So here I am this morning reminding myself about the wisdom of trusting the process, for me and for all others. Trust the Process. I don't have all the answers, nor do I really know what will transpire, even when I look at what is taking place right Now and can see what is a logical course to follow.
Rather than add my emotional energy to the collective energy pool swarming around the issues of what will happen next, I am making the conscious choice to focus my energy on expanding my inner awareness. Some days I'll be better at this than others, I'm sure. By increasing my receptivity to my inner prompting, I can pick up any information I need to navigate through the rapids of this great shift. And that's the goal for each of us anyway, to expand our powers of awareness into multidimensional mode.
To this end, some more old emotional gunk acquired as a bi-product of life recently surfaced to be examined, resolved, and released. Just when I think I'm about done with this clearing process, here comes a few more issues to deal with. Actually I'm grateful this is happening. Each resolved and released issue is one less weight to carry, and one less thing to alter and sometimes distort my perception.
I'm getting to the foundational layers of the internalized messages that have told me I'm not worth noticing, I'm not deserving, I'm not worthy of respect. The legacy of a childhood of inattention, disregard, criticism, judgment, and no affection. Passed on by parents who received the same in their childhoods. Many, many years I've worked on peeling through the layers of Self to cull out these messages that wove themselves through my being. Is this the last layer?? I sincerely hope so, and if it's not, then I'll just keep peeling away until I've discarded the last remnants of this pack of lies. I'll know I've succeeded when I no longer catch myself responding with explanations and attempts to justify myself in the face of someone's subtle judgments, as I did the other day.
All the self work pays off, believe me, it's the most important work we can do. At least IMHO. My daughter told me once that she has never doubted for a moment that she is loved, respected, and valued unconditionally. One of the greatest gifts I've ever received was hearing that. It means I broke the destructive patterns that ran through my bloodlines. Of this I'm immensely proud. Perhaps one day in the future every person will know without a doubt that they are of immense value, worthy and respected, and deeply loved for who they are. Imagine the difference in our world then. We will have created Utopia.
I know, both in my heart and mind, that I am Divinely protected. Many of us are. My guidance clearly stated that I am safe here for now, they are working on assistance to ensure this. Though the time to move is near, I do not need to rush. This may only mean the difference between moving in three months as opposed to six weeks, though in this bit of extra time I sense that more good will flow from me and to me throughout the transition. Any protection extended to me will also extend to this wonderful community of people I live amongst. Whatever benefit my energy provides as I move about the community can have it's effect. Giving a little more time allows for the gathering of whatever I will need in whatever new place that I'm headed. All is in Universal Order.
I have great and deep love and care for humanity. Part of me wants to warn and alert people to what is unfolding. However, the other part of me knows this is not my role, and it backfires on me whenever I start telling anyone about the need to watch what is really going on. They don't want to hear. It's better for me to recognize that each person has their own process of awakening, even if they have to be shaken by events in order to wake up. So here I am this morning reminding myself about the wisdom of trusting the process, for me and for all others. Trust the Process. I don't have all the answers, nor do I really know what will transpire, even when I look at what is taking place right Now and can see what is a logical course to follow.
Rather than add my emotional energy to the collective energy pool swarming around the issues of what will happen next, I am making the conscious choice to focus my energy on expanding my inner awareness. Some days I'll be better at this than others, I'm sure. By increasing my receptivity to my inner prompting, I can pick up any information I need to navigate through the rapids of this great shift. And that's the goal for each of us anyway, to expand our powers of awareness into multidimensional mode.
To this end, some more old emotional gunk acquired as a bi-product of life recently surfaced to be examined, resolved, and released. Just when I think I'm about done with this clearing process, here comes a few more issues to deal with. Actually I'm grateful this is happening. Each resolved and released issue is one less weight to carry, and one less thing to alter and sometimes distort my perception.
I'm getting to the foundational layers of the internalized messages that have told me I'm not worth noticing, I'm not deserving, I'm not worthy of respect. The legacy of a childhood of inattention, disregard, criticism, judgment, and no affection. Passed on by parents who received the same in their childhoods. Many, many years I've worked on peeling through the layers of Self to cull out these messages that wove themselves through my being. Is this the last layer?? I sincerely hope so, and if it's not, then I'll just keep peeling away until I've discarded the last remnants of this pack of lies. I'll know I've succeeded when I no longer catch myself responding with explanations and attempts to justify myself in the face of someone's subtle judgments, as I did the other day.
All the self work pays off, believe me, it's the most important work we can do. At least IMHO. My daughter told me once that she has never doubted for a moment that she is loved, respected, and valued unconditionally. One of the greatest gifts I've ever received was hearing that. It means I broke the destructive patterns that ran through my bloodlines. Of this I'm immensely proud. Perhaps one day in the future every person will know without a doubt that they are of immense value, worthy and respected, and deeply loved for who they are. Imagine the difference in our world then. We will have created Utopia.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Readying to Be of Service As The GulF Oil Disaster Unfolds
Where have I been? I've been having a test of faith. A nice phrase, "A test of faith." Not quite so eloquent when you're passing through it. Mine was a small test that I've passed through. My faith remains unshaken.
Often in the midst of a challenge a gift comes to us unexpectedly, and the gift changes our interior landscape. Our inner tone shifts, heaviness vanishes, and our perception clears. I share what appeared as a gift to me the other night, "The Relationship To Gaia".
I'm reminded of the last time I traveled by plane. I flew from Asheville, which is nestled in the juncture of the Blue Ridge and Smoky Mountains. I had a window seat. As we ascended, I looked down at the mountains with their carpet of millions of green trees. The expansiveness of our Earth grew in my vision as the plane rose. Inside I felt the Earth speaking. How much she loves us all. How she provides everything we need, presented to us amidst the miles and miles of every stretching beauty. Gaia loves us so very much.
Each day I stand barefoot in the grass, reach down placing my palms upon Earth and tell her how I love her throughout my being.
This morning I am incredulous. It has seemed to me as the disaster in the GOM grows and the intentional poisoning of the waters and air proceeds with such stealth, that people would finally begin waking up. Is this not large and glaring enough???? Yet I hear statements such as these almost daily... "People can't leave Florida! They'll never be able to sell their houses." "What's corexit?" "I really don't want to hear all about what's happening in the Gulf. I prefer to just send my love and prayers to the dolphins and turtles." Well what has to happen before it matters to you!!!!
Waters flow. Winds Blow. They circulate and permeate. Water and air. The two most basic requirements for life. Everything is interconnected. Everything is interdependent.
There is no mistake in the name given to this dispersant. Corexit. Core Exit. They've now dumped "OVER 42 Million Gallons of Corexit into the ocean" according to a Federal government witness at the hearings taking place in New Orleans. Corexit will usher many out of the planet.
The malevolence continues until people pay attention to what is going on and stand up against it. There is the mis-perception in the New Age community that paying attention to negative things happening in the Now makes them manifest. Well they are already here! They've manifested here now because of apathy and inaction. They've manifested here now because people abdicated and signed over their Free Will, rather than defend their right to choose how the Earth, their home, is treated. Not paying attention to what is happening right now is Denial.
I'm beginning to comprehend that most people will not wake up until their individual life is irreparably altered. Until they are faced with the situation of having no money and/or no food and/or no water. The malevolent destruction must appear in their own small world before they take notice and realize they could have done something to prevent it. It makes me sad. I'm deeply disappointed that oh so many, many people have forgotten how to be Human Beings. I've always held such hope for the peoples of Earth.
After two years of existing in a holding pattern of sorts while waiting for the shift to really get underway, it's now time for me to move into action. First downsizing significantly so I travel lighter, then a quick relocation to where I'm needed next. The holding pattern had become a draining way to live from day to day. It's with much relief and growing excitement that I prepare now for the move north. Intuitively, I now know the placement, the place where I'm being called into service. The details of getting there always fall into place like clockwork when we're headed in the necessary direction. Work awaits me. There will be much for many of us to do as the turbulence increases in the coming weeks and months. I focus now on being in placement and ready.
Many years ago I had a reading which told me I would eventually work finding homes for many displaced people. Couldn't imagine then the path that would lead me there, how this would come about, or what would cause many displaced people. Clear as day now. The displaced will be arriving very soon, in droves. And I intend to be in place and ready when they they arrive. Many basic needs to be met. Systems to be designed to meet those needs for shelter and food. Spirit speaks from within. I do my best to listen and act.
Often in the midst of a challenge a gift comes to us unexpectedly, and the gift changes our interior landscape. Our inner tone shifts, heaviness vanishes, and our perception clears. I share what appeared as a gift to me the other night, "The Relationship To Gaia".
I'm reminded of the last time I traveled by plane. I flew from Asheville, which is nestled in the juncture of the Blue Ridge and Smoky Mountains. I had a window seat. As we ascended, I looked down at the mountains with their carpet of millions of green trees. The expansiveness of our Earth grew in my vision as the plane rose. Inside I felt the Earth speaking. How much she loves us all. How she provides everything we need, presented to us amidst the miles and miles of every stretching beauty. Gaia loves us so very much.
Each day I stand barefoot in the grass, reach down placing my palms upon Earth and tell her how I love her throughout my being.
This morning I am incredulous. It has seemed to me as the disaster in the GOM grows and the intentional poisoning of the waters and air proceeds with such stealth, that people would finally begin waking up. Is this not large and glaring enough???? Yet I hear statements such as these almost daily... "People can't leave Florida! They'll never be able to sell their houses." "What's corexit?" "I really don't want to hear all about what's happening in the Gulf. I prefer to just send my love and prayers to the dolphins and turtles." Well what has to happen before it matters to you!!!!
Waters flow. Winds Blow. They circulate and permeate. Water and air. The two most basic requirements for life. Everything is interconnected. Everything is interdependent.
There is no mistake in the name given to this dispersant. Corexit. Core Exit. They've now dumped "OVER 42 Million Gallons of Corexit into the ocean" according to a Federal government witness at the hearings taking place in New Orleans. Corexit will usher many out of the planet.
The malevolence continues until people pay attention to what is going on and stand up against it. There is the mis-perception in the New Age community that paying attention to negative things happening in the Now makes them manifest. Well they are already here! They've manifested here now because of apathy and inaction. They've manifested here now because people abdicated and signed over their Free Will, rather than defend their right to choose how the Earth, their home, is treated. Not paying attention to what is happening right now is Denial.
I'm beginning to comprehend that most people will not wake up until their individual life is irreparably altered. Until they are faced with the situation of having no money and/or no food and/or no water. The malevolent destruction must appear in their own small world before they take notice and realize they could have done something to prevent it. It makes me sad. I'm deeply disappointed that oh so many, many people have forgotten how to be Human Beings. I've always held such hope for the peoples of Earth.
After two years of existing in a holding pattern of sorts while waiting for the shift to really get underway, it's now time for me to move into action. First downsizing significantly so I travel lighter, then a quick relocation to where I'm needed next. The holding pattern had become a draining way to live from day to day. It's with much relief and growing excitement that I prepare now for the move north. Intuitively, I now know the placement, the place where I'm being called into service. The details of getting there always fall into place like clockwork when we're headed in the necessary direction. Work awaits me. There will be much for many of us to do as the turbulence increases in the coming weeks and months. I focus now on being in placement and ready.
Many years ago I had a reading which told me I would eventually work finding homes for many displaced people. Couldn't imagine then the path that would lead me there, how this would come about, or what would cause many displaced people. Clear as day now. The displaced will be arriving very soon, in droves. And I intend to be in place and ready when they they arrive. Many basic needs to be met. Systems to be designed to meet those needs for shelter and food. Spirit speaks from within. I do my best to listen and act.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Channeled Message with Encouraging Words About the Oil Disaster
The following channeled message was forwarded to me today. It suggests passing it on to others, which I'm happy to do. It's the most encouraging news I've read recently about the oil disaster in the GOM. When help comes, it will change everything.
So you have a situation that, on nearly all fronts, is actually beyond your present human technology to fix. Various attempts that have been paraded on your news programs are more like dog-and-pony shows, meant to give an illusion of engineering competency. Of course the fervent hope is that you-the-people aren’t technically savvy enough to see through such charades, especially with the media’s lapdog collusion. But while such deceptions may buy some time, do you perhaps see a parallel between this jam and that of the thief stuck in the air-conditioning vent?
So now I ask you a question to ponder: WHO do you suppose these stuck, oil-soaked thieves will eventually—if begrudgingly—have to call for 911 help? Hint: It’s certainly not the first time we of the Host (and our Galactic Federation brotherhood) have been called to respond to dangerous matters that have gotten out-of-control on your planet (think, for example,Chernobyl
Yes, the call (911 or other) most certainly compels the answer. But what form that answer takes is yet to unfold in the fullness of lessons of most value to the spiritual growth of all. I leave you with more than enough to ponder for now.
I am Commander Ceres Anthonious “Toniose” Soltec of the Host of God of Light and Creation. My duty is that of friend, teacher, and wayshower to all who search for Truth as a path to Wisdom. Salu.
Love to All!
This message was transmitted by Commander Soltec, Head of Scientific Division of the Ashtar Command, through his scribe Dr. Edwin M. Young. It accurately reflects the current thinking at the etherian level. ~Ashtar
Ceres Anthonious "Toniose" Soltec: The Big Squeeze ~ 6/27/10
Received by Dr. Edwin M. Young
An exceptional message from Commander Soltec about the Gulf Oil Spill:
Good evening, my scribe. Yes, it is your longtime friend and scientific colleague, Toniose. And yes, you have been hearing parts of this message for many days now, as certain ones, more attuned than most to Truth, have been moved to ask you about the mess in the Gulf. The question indeed compels the answer. Thank you for taking the time to write for me, that we might provide insight for a wider questioning audience.
By all means, I would expect nothing less than that you demand a proper identification of my energy, no matter how familiar my energy signature might seem: I am more formally known as Ceres Anthonious “Toniose” Soltec. I am the Geophysical Commander of this present Earth Transition Project. I am of the team known as the Host of God. I come in the Radiant Light of the One who created All That Is, in service to those who seek Truth. My domain of expertise and responsibility reaches far beyond what is known as the science of geophysics on your planet, since your current level of understanding lacks much in the way of appreciation for the CONSCIOUS nature of great and compassionate planetary beings like your Mother Earth.
Many ones at various stages of spiritual awakening are asking at this time for insights about the tragic situation unfolding in the Gulf of Mexico region of your
As we of the Host have told you many times in our past messages, this is an era of The Great Awakening and The Great Cleansing, when important lessons in spiritual growth would play themselves out in your physical arena in an accelerated and sometimes intensely blunt fashion. This exercise applies as much to the Dark Energies, who are valiantly attempting to hold onto their longstanding planetary control mechanisms (especially money and energy), as it applies to those of you operating in more of a Lighted manner.
The more aligned with the Light you are, the more comfortable you will become as the incoming Light continues to increase in both intensity and frequency. In response to this present challenging environment, you have, for some time now, been constantly making adjustments in the underlying energy structures which support and maintain your physical, mental, and emotional bodies—especially as you shed buried emotional scars left over from past lessons in this Earth schoolroom. Like a tennis ball thrown into a swimming pool full of activity, you may get jostled around a lot, and temporarily even get submerged now and then, but you’ll find yourself generally floating to the water’s surface, so to speak, due to the buoyancy that results from your Light. As we have long suggested, making an effort each day to be quiet and connect within to Source will go a long way toward bringing a measure of balance and inner peace to offset the outer chaos that may be unfolding all around you as matters intensify between the Light and Dark.
That outer chaos is largely the result of how the incoming Light is bothering the Dark Energies. Like the melting of snow-men and their elaborate snow-forts as the seasons move into the warmth of summer, these Dark ones are experiencing the gradual yet utter dissolution of all that they have worked so diligently to achieve over many centuries of clever manipulation of humanity. Thus you are observing (and perhaps even experiencing firsthand through such as economic hardship) their roaring tantrums over this losing situation.
Their anger is often vented through stepped-up manipulation of negative-impact events, carried out mostly through various worldwide human puppetry, some of whom you recognize as the so-called elite controllers of your planet and their international corporate minions. These shenanigans are typically designed to generate outpourings of fear and anger from the masses (especially hoping to pull down you highly Lighted ones) since the more low-frequency energies they cause to be sent into the planetary ethers, the more that helps to buy them time by keeping the “temperature” cooler in terms of the energy climate they need to remain comfortable and effective. So the less YOU become caught up in THEIR shenanigans (through contributing any outpourings of negative emotions), the less they can continue to tolerate remaining around you or this planet.
My scribe had quite a laugh a few weeks ago when, in response to a friend’s question, I first shared a mental picture of where these Dark Energies and their puppetry are stuck at this time in the unfolding events of your planetary transformation: Perhaps you have seen comic-relief video clips on the evening news of some “unfortunate” thief, who had been intent on robbing some closed convenience store in the middle of the night, but who had managed to get himself royally stuck in an air-conditioning ceiling vent that was supposed to be his clever route of entry into the store. Consider the point in his plight shortly BEFORE he finally has to “cry uncle” and pull out his cell phone to call 911 for help; it is a point of the most sickening frustration, then anguish, and finally, realization and acceptance of the inevitable. Once he makes that call his game is over, as he and his intentions become exposed for all to see on the next day’s local news.
It would be useful to keep that picture of the ill-fated thief in mind—stuck, as your expression goes, “between a rock and a hard place”—as you watch what is going on with the extremely toxic oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico (among other unravelings of the Dark Energy power structure). Intense and profound spiritual lessons are underway on many levels. Let us consider a few of the perhaps less obvious ones:
First of all, the very corporate arm of the elite who have consistently (and often ruthlessly) suppressed, for most of the last century, all of the so-called “free-energy” modalities gifted to your planet through various inventors, that would have rendered oil (a natural fluid of Mother Earth’s circulatory system) unnecessary ever as an energy source, are the ones squarely and quite publicly “on trial” at the center of this mess in the Gulf. And all attempts to soften the situation through expensive media PR campaigns have only backfired on them.
But such “poetic justice” is hardly the end of their dilemma. Those who operate under Dark control are never known to exercise any degree of intelligent or moral balance in their pursuits (think, for example, Bernie Madoff), and this case is no exception.
So you have a situation that, on nearly all fronts, is actually beyond your present human technology to fix. Various attempts that have been paraded on your news programs are more like dog-and-pony shows, meant to give an illusion of engineering competency. Of course the fervent hope is that you-the-people aren’t technically savvy enough to see through such charades, especially with the media’s lapdog collusion. But while such deceptions may buy some time, do you perhaps see a parallel between this jam and that of the thief stuck in the air-conditioning vent?
So now I ask you a question to ponder: WHO do you suppose these stuck, oil-soaked thieves will eventually—if begrudgingly—have to call for 911 help? Hint: It’s certainly not the first time we of the Host (and our Galactic Federation brotherhood) have been called to respond to dangerous matters that have gotten out-of-control on your planet (think, for example,
Yes, the call (911 or other) most certainly compels the answer. But what form that answer takes is yet to unfold in the fullness of lessons of most value to the spiritual growth of all. I leave you with more than enough to ponder for now.
I am Commander Ceres Anthonious “Toniose” Soltec of the Host of God of Light and Creation. My duty is that of friend, teacher, and wayshower to all who search for Truth as a path to Wisdom. Salu.
Love to All!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Learning to Accept the Unknown
Guidance came to me suggesting that it's best that I keep this blog as a journal sharing my journey through this Great Transition, which is close to what I'd envisioned at the beginning. I have no idea whether this is of interest to anyone, but perhaps in sharing my experience it will provide encouragement and inspiration for yours.
My plan for moving north is taking shape and at the same time, as more news comes in, feeling more urgent. To be honest, this is all feeling very surreal. Two weeks ago I intended to stay here long term. I was planning to buy the house I'm living in. I was visualizing all the raised garden beds completed, full of rich soil and lush green plants. I was mapping out a fruit orchard and planting hedges of raspberries, blackberries, and trellised grapes. I had no desire to move and didn't see the need to. I've quickly made the mental/emotional switch and accepted that here we go again! Pack up and off to yet another place I don't know and have no connection to anyone. The past three moves were good preparation, I'm not afraid of relocating to an unfamiliar place. If you're facing this, it's not so hard as it appears. It can be a really good experience. The unexpected can turn out to be awesome. There are kind, good people everywhere.
Today I'm at the stage of taking a deep breath before plunging in on selling furniture and unneeded possessions, and packing up. It feels completely overwhelming in one way, and not so bad in another. At least I know where to begin. Photographs and posting on Craig's List.
I had a reading done last week asking for clarifications about my prompts to relocate. I received much guidance about listening to what comes through the ethers and to be accepting of being in a state of unknowing, rather than to seek certainty ahead. That we all must accept the unknowing. It's a big part of our growth through these times. I find myself walking a tenuous line between gathering news of what is currently going on in the world and keep myself from being sucked into the emotions of what is being said by others. A challenge to stay clear as to my own feelings and inner promptings and not be swayed by others' emotions. It's the goal for each of us going forward - stay tuned to your own inner voice, your heart, and your feelings. Feelings carry massive amounts of information with them, if we listen.
There's another transition going on within me at this same time, actually there are many, but I'll focus on this one. Over the past three years I was given the opportunity to heal and center back into who I am after a long period of intense work, little time for reflection, and much sadness in what occurred, which left me greatly burnt out and way out of balance. It was a huge gift from the universe to receive the space to rejuvenate and recoup, to release issues and feelings stored in my emotional, mental, and physical body, to ground, recenter, and expand. I benefited greatly from this time and space, and am extremely grateful. Before this gift, I had never had the time, space, and financial resources to withdraw totally into myself, to just be, to stay primarily in isolation.
That period is over now, I know this. Though I'm having some difficultly emerging back into a more active life. I welcome the resurgence, and at the same time, struggle against a too familiar inertia from the past three years. Anyway, it's got to end now, there's too much to do today, and tomorrow, and the next day. Feeling my energy moving in action is what feels best now. Two things would really help though. First is a drop from the mid-90 degree temperatures and oppressive humidity that have been here for the past month. I like warm weather, but it's just too damn hot. Second is to have some company in this endeavor. Having not lived here long, I don't know a lot of people, least not the kind one can call and say, "Hey, can you help me with packing?" There are no long-term friends or family nearby. Many hands make light work. I wish my daughter and son-in-law 2b were here. That we were doing this together. It is our time, the time for all of us to pull together.
Where I'm relocating to hasn't come into focus yet. It will, that I have no doubt. This trust feels good. After much inner work, much learning and growing, here is the chance to put all the learning into action. To live with the unknown and trust that we can stay fluid, holding the vibration of joy and appreciation, and knowing that the right doors will open for us as we need them.
My plan for moving north is taking shape and at the same time, as more news comes in, feeling more urgent. To be honest, this is all feeling very surreal. Two weeks ago I intended to stay here long term. I was planning to buy the house I'm living in. I was visualizing all the raised garden beds completed, full of rich soil and lush green plants. I was mapping out a fruit orchard and planting hedges of raspberries, blackberries, and trellised grapes. I had no desire to move and didn't see the need to. I've quickly made the mental/emotional switch and accepted that here we go again! Pack up and off to yet another place I don't know and have no connection to anyone. The past three moves were good preparation, I'm not afraid of relocating to an unfamiliar place. If you're facing this, it's not so hard as it appears. It can be a really good experience. The unexpected can turn out to be awesome. There are kind, good people everywhere.
Today I'm at the stage of taking a deep breath before plunging in on selling furniture and unneeded possessions, and packing up. It feels completely overwhelming in one way, and not so bad in another. At least I know where to begin. Photographs and posting on Craig's List.
I had a reading done last week asking for clarifications about my prompts to relocate. I received much guidance about listening to what comes through the ethers and to be accepting of being in a state of unknowing, rather than to seek certainty ahead. That we all must accept the unknowing. It's a big part of our growth through these times. I find myself walking a tenuous line between gathering news of what is currently going on in the world and keep myself from being sucked into the emotions of what is being said by others. A challenge to stay clear as to my own feelings and inner promptings and not be swayed by others' emotions. It's the goal for each of us going forward - stay tuned to your own inner voice, your heart, and your feelings. Feelings carry massive amounts of information with them, if we listen.
There's another transition going on within me at this same time, actually there are many, but I'll focus on this one. Over the past three years I was given the opportunity to heal and center back into who I am after a long period of intense work, little time for reflection, and much sadness in what occurred, which left me greatly burnt out and way out of balance. It was a huge gift from the universe to receive the space to rejuvenate and recoup, to release issues and feelings stored in my emotional, mental, and physical body, to ground, recenter, and expand. I benefited greatly from this time and space, and am extremely grateful. Before this gift, I had never had the time, space, and financial resources to withdraw totally into myself, to just be, to stay primarily in isolation.
That period is over now, I know this. Though I'm having some difficultly emerging back into a more active life. I welcome the resurgence, and at the same time, struggle against a too familiar inertia from the past three years. Anyway, it's got to end now, there's too much to do today, and tomorrow, and the next day. Feeling my energy moving in action is what feels best now. Two things would really help though. First is a drop from the mid-90 degree temperatures and oppressive humidity that have been here for the past month. I like warm weather, but it's just too damn hot. Second is to have some company in this endeavor. Having not lived here long, I don't know a lot of people, least not the kind one can call and say, "Hey, can you help me with packing?" There are no long-term friends or family nearby. Many hands make light work. I wish my daughter and son-in-law 2b were here. That we were doing this together. It is our time, the time for all of us to pull together.
Where I'm relocating to hasn't come into focus yet. It will, that I have no doubt. This trust feels good. After much inner work, much learning and growing, here is the chance to put all the learning into action. To live with the unknown and trust that we can stay fluid, holding the vibration of joy and appreciation, and knowing that the right doors will open for us as we need them.
Friday, June 25, 2010
If We Tense Up, We Can't Dance
The winds of change are blowing. In response, yesterday I made the decision to release all unnecessary possessions, pack up, and move within the next two months. I do not know whether the toxic oil and dispersant chemicals will travel up to my current location. They may, they may not. Following logic and the movement of the winds, they will come close. This week's Web Bot Shape of Things to Come report speaks of the chemicals being trapped at the foothills of the mountains. Close, when talking of really harmful chemicals, is too close for me.
What I realized that settled my decision is that I will not be comfortable living from day to day watching the winds. I received guidance that I would move by November. That's only four months away. Moving now feels right. Waiting doesn't. My ease of decision surprises to me in a number of ways. I just moved here 8 months ago. I'm in a beautiful area and a wonderful piece of land, one that is perfect for creating my Domain, as envisioned by Anastasia in the Ringing Cedars books (see link on side bar). After a number of relocations rather close together, I imagined that I was in a place where I could settle in, really put down roots, and remain, without further upheaval. Well the picture just changes shape. Yet having made the decision to move, I'm not experiencing any of the sadness and resistance to releasing my attachment to this place that I would have expected. Interesting observation. I've changed.
I don't know exactly where I'm headed and that feels OK, which is another very surprising aspect. I'm one of those people who always has to have all the details of the path worked out before I would decide to head down that new path. or I used to be. I see I'm different now. This time I'm content to focus on what needs to be done today, like making a list of what I want to sell or give away, placing ads on Craig's list, sorting through old files to be shredded. As to where to move, I've started a list of options for consideration. This time I'm trusting that the perfect option will present itself, even if it's a temporary one, while I allow the pieces to unfold and come together for the longer term destination. This is a new way of approaching things for me. And you know, it feels really good.
After much work, I find I really, finally, understand and trust that I don't have to force and wrap up the conclusion. Instead, if I put out what I want to appear for me, like a new job where I can be of assistance to others and a living situation that meets basic criteria for me and my dogs, and I trust they will emerge from one of the options before me, what I want will be there. I get to create what I want and need in this way. When I try to sort out every detail of the full solution, as I used to do in the past, I was actually interfering with the Universe providing what I asked for. Like trying to get a seedling to grow quickly by prodding the soil, rather than Knowing it will sprout and grow. We just need to plant the seed, add water in the form of flowing trust, continue forward taking all actions that support our vision, and allow the Divine Creator to take care of the growth into blossoming.
Since making the decision, my energy has made a complete shift. I feel like the On switch was just engaged. I'm re-energized. That's an indication, the best indication, that I've chosen a good coarse for me.
As the shifting increases in the days and months ahead, it will be important for all of us to accept uncertainty and unknowing, where before we may have felt a sense of certainty. In reality, nothing is certain except the present. We can no longer pretend that things are going to be the same tomorrow or next week, or six months from now. Many are going to have a very difficult time with this as their reality of "the way things are" suddenly isn't there any more. Yet it's from the unknowing that creation takes place. If we let go, accept the unknowing, and flow with what's here now, knowing that we create what appears round the corner through our intent and vision, our trust and faith, we'll flow through each shift and bend. Flexible strength is a good thing to aim for. If we tense up, we can't dance.
What I realized that settled my decision is that I will not be comfortable living from day to day watching the winds. I received guidance that I would move by November. That's only four months away. Moving now feels right. Waiting doesn't. My ease of decision surprises to me in a number of ways. I just moved here 8 months ago. I'm in a beautiful area and a wonderful piece of land, one that is perfect for creating my Domain, as envisioned by Anastasia in the Ringing Cedars books (see link on side bar). After a number of relocations rather close together, I imagined that I was in a place where I could settle in, really put down roots, and remain, without further upheaval. Well the picture just changes shape. Yet having made the decision to move, I'm not experiencing any of the sadness and resistance to releasing my attachment to this place that I would have expected. Interesting observation. I've changed.
I don't know exactly where I'm headed and that feels OK, which is another very surprising aspect. I'm one of those people who always has to have all the details of the path worked out before I would decide to head down that new path. or I used to be. I see I'm different now. This time I'm content to focus on what needs to be done today, like making a list of what I want to sell or give away, placing ads on Craig's list, sorting through old files to be shredded. As to where to move, I've started a list of options for consideration. This time I'm trusting that the perfect option will present itself, even if it's a temporary one, while I allow the pieces to unfold and come together for the longer term destination. This is a new way of approaching things for me. And you know, it feels really good.
After much work, I find I really, finally, understand and trust that I don't have to force and wrap up the conclusion. Instead, if I put out what I want to appear for me, like a new job where I can be of assistance to others and a living situation that meets basic criteria for me and my dogs, and I trust they will emerge from one of the options before me, what I want will be there. I get to create what I want and need in this way. When I try to sort out every detail of the full solution, as I used to do in the past, I was actually interfering with the Universe providing what I asked for. Like trying to get a seedling to grow quickly by prodding the soil, rather than Knowing it will sprout and grow. We just need to plant the seed, add water in the form of flowing trust, continue forward taking all actions that support our vision, and allow the Divine Creator to take care of the growth into blossoming.
Since making the decision, my energy has made a complete shift. I feel like the On switch was just engaged. I'm re-energized. That's an indication, the best indication, that I've chosen a good coarse for me.
As the shifting increases in the days and months ahead, it will be important for all of us to accept uncertainty and unknowing, where before we may have felt a sense of certainty. In reality, nothing is certain except the present. We can no longer pretend that things are going to be the same tomorrow or next week, or six months from now. Many are going to have a very difficult time with this as their reality of "the way things are" suddenly isn't there any more. Yet it's from the unknowing that creation takes place. If we let go, accept the unknowing, and flow with what's here now, knowing that we create what appears round the corner through our intent and vision, our trust and faith, we'll flow through each shift and bend. Flexible strength is a good thing to aim for. If we tense up, we can't dance.
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